Hi Everyone, I recently had an episode where I became extremely risk taking ,my brain was in massive overdrive, I think the trigger was from being around someone who’s dad and uncle sexually abused me at 14. The young fellow I was around was a fellow worshipper of God and he had no idea about my past trauma with his close relatives because at the time it happened to me he was a little baby. His father ended up suiciding in prison, and his uncle is a big wierdo to this day he said. I didn’t wanna retraumatise myself or him by sharing my story because has put his own demons to rest he said coz he never got to know his father. Seeing this young man whos voice was similar and looks were similar to two of my abusers was a major trigger for me and set me on a tangent of major risk taking agro speech and extremely suicidal thoughts. I’m proud of myself that I never touched one drop of alcohol, even tho it was all around me at the hotel I was staying at on the Gold Coast. But anyway I checked into triage then checked myself out the next day but went to my GP and my mental health counsellor to get some better help for my moods. I’m kind of glad this happened because up until now I thought there was more to my mental health issues but just would accept the physichiatrists diagnosis of complex PTSD and anxiety and depression. All I take is lexopro. 20 mg. I’ve been booked into Park to go in the coming weeks so I can get some proper help and further professional guidance as well as other stuff. So glad I made it here to tell use 
That was intense and almost overwhelming - what a surprise for you; I can only imagine how it must have felt. I’m grateful you made it through safe.
Sounds like you’ve dug into your emotions here and you’re using this as a chance to development your treatment and your mental health. Thats a constructive step and I’m sure it will be helpful.
Take care and keep in touch 
Intense and Overwealming , yep. But it hasn’t broken me or my resolve . I check in when I do lol. I’m just a user of this place, others story’s and tips have uplifted me so hoping that me sharing helps others too😊
Hello there. We suffer from similar circumstances with similar diagnosis. One of my abusers (my father) is already in prison serving 113 years for the asults against myself and my sister’s. Last night my sister called and said he now has 2 pending murder charges against him. One I reported to them more than a dozen years ago but they’re picking up cold cases in my state right now. So now I am going to have to face him in court yet again. This has my mental health a mess this morning. Thinking about calling my Dr. Great job for not picking up!!! I know it’s rough but were here for you! Thanks for listening.
Hey @SoberVigilant I relate to being messed up mentally and I know also how our bodys remember trauma and reacts accordingly . For example today I had to go into the cop shop to make a statement against one of my abusers and because the abuse lasted for so long my body seized up half an hour before I had to meet the police. . I literally suffered unbearable stomach cramps and fell to the floor of my bathroom in a semi comatosed state I was breathing like I was in labour and I honestly thought I was going to die, I pulled myself up onto the toilet and I just had the biggest nervous poo ever 
. OMG I can’t believe I’m sharing this here but what the heck mate I’m annonomous so what ever 
. Any who when I got to the police station and had my mental health support worker with me I felt like I was going into another bout of nervous shits mode so ended up flammen bombing the police toilets hahahhaa. Anyway my point is this. I understand how deeply trauma is stored inside our body’s and I just want to say if you can get yourself into some good mental health support schemes where ever you are that would help you to have an advocate for you when your going through court again, we are quite lucky here in Australia they have a fair bit of mental health supports in place since Covid hit our state hard. I wish you all the best on your journey. Stay strong @soberVigilant
Wow sorry to hear that. I sure hope your day gets better nothing worse than that gastric upset and a cade of screaming 
’s to start that day. 
Yes my nurse just called back and the Dr is increasing my dosage. You too!