Happy Saturday Julia
i’m sure you are over the moon to have your boys home with you. how are you doing? still busy with the move or do you get a chance to relax over the weekend?
i am feeling better today and starting my day with a lovely mood and a hot cup of coffee… nothing planned but i know it will be a good day.
much love Julia 
Guys I’m so sorry. The last week was horrible and the next week still is. It’s so much to do. The moving is so tyring. Hardly any time for the kids 
and we can’t even focus on the new house because we have to give back the old house in good condition. Which means now painting the walls, cleaning etc. I have some help from a nice person (of course he gets money) but he does all the help. Im sitting at my doctor now trying to get a sick leave because I’m really on the edge. Drinking doesn’t help, makes everything worse but I couldn’t fall asleep due to all the stress. But now waking up with panic attacks at night after drinking is even worse. So yes I’m starting again. Throwing out the leftovers now… I am sometimes sitting in the car being so scared while driving that I just drive against a wall. I’m so exhausted from everything. I can’t think right and my head is just spinning 24 hours. Yelling at the kids because I can’t handle it anymore…
@JazzyS thank you for always thinking of me. I hope you are doing very well. Much love to you 
Oh Julia - this sounds super stressful and i can feel your exhaustion.
Im sorry love. Glad that you have hired help. Take deep breathes and know that this too shall pass.
I know when i get short nerve syndrome (yup i made it up but its real)…a vitamin b12 helps.
Try you deep breathing or take a break just to rest your eyes (even if u r standing). Splace cold water on your face every now and then. These help cool my edginess.
We are here if you want to vent.
Much love my dear friend- was good to hear from you.
PS…remember it will get easier and you can get through this period too.
Good morning everyone
It took me now a week to finally come to terms with myself. I am not continuing to live like that. I am starting again. Woke up early today. Working from home. Then having time for the kids and go for a run tonight. I need to take care of myself again. Haven’t done this for the past months…
Finally the old house is given back and now focusing on the new house and my sobriety. Thank you all for reading
Good evening, had a good day. Went to the lake with the kids and enjoyed the sun. At night I went for a 45 min run. Sunset run. Shower. Dinner. Now in bed. Made the day Sober 
sounds like a great day. glad that you are now back on the sobriety track. taking care of yourself. Hopefully now that your old house is in the past you can be less stressed in getting your new home all settled iin. 
much love Julia - glad to see you back here (missed our daily chats)
I missed you too!!! A lot and thought of you how you are… Hope you have a great Sober Saturday. Here the sun is shining. So I will enjoy the day outside with the kids and at night sun set running again. So I overcome the cravings at night.
Kisses to you
A lovely Saturday to you my friend
Its a sunny day here too. Just starting out. Great job on fighting those urges! I too needed some talking to last night as my addict voice was loud. Grateful that i won.
Love your nightly runs. I do hope they are allowing for a restful nights sleep.
I have some work to do and nothing else planned. Looking forward to another sober day for the both of us
Hi
I read your journey since May and i just wanted to tell you i admire your determination to get sober. Have a great saturday. Sending you lots of love xxx and remember, just for today. One minute at a time, one hour at a time…cant wait to read you 
Lately I dream a lot about getting high…feel like my brain is playing tricks on me…but I wont give in! Last time I got high i felt so anxious but last night in my dream I was feeling good… I woke up and laughed and told my subconscious it was funny to try and get me that way!
Have a great day sober, sending you lots of positive energy 🫶🏻
thank you 
this was perfect to read and yup - laughing at the audacity of the addict mind to try and find a back door in is a great play. you are doing fantastic with your addiction free days - thanks for sharing
I love naruto the manga, and 2 months ago i got tattooed the seal for his demon on my stomach. I tell people i sealed my demon. In the series he fights with kubi (his demon). But he gets power from that same demon that brings him a lot of pain. I came to realize that it would be the same for me and my addiction…it will always be there in me… but if i fight it…i can get power from it! And i think this goes for all of us thank you for your comment.
now that is super cool tattoo and a amazing way to interpret it!. Way to go on sealing that Demon - keep gaining power from it rather than allowing it to take your power. Totally love this flip the script attitude. What a lovely thought to start off my Saturday with.
Hey justed wanted to check up, hope you are having a great day. 
Hey hope you are having a good day
Thanks for asking love - its been a day but i’m in a good head space so that is great.
how are you ladies doing? @sara.eve @Sunshine-girl
Hope both are enjoying this beautiful Saturday!
Yes i had a great day and a great evening with my boyfriend
Thanks 
good night
Good morning everyone did 10km yesterday night. It feels so good to finally work out again. Now off to the Alps for the day. Have a great Sober day everyone
Hope you had or are having a great time at the Alps - what a lovely way to spend your Sunday.
10km run - loving that you are getting back into it as well and enjoying it so much. Great way to release the anxiety and stress from the day and also helps with a good nights sleep.
not much going on here - my mom popped in this morning to enjoy some coffee together. now just catching up here. Its a hot one for us so will not be doing anything outdoors today.
@Sara.eve hope you are enjoying your Sunday as well
Much love ladies
Hi to both of you
Everything is going great we went to the restaurant for breakfest. We are going to my mom’s boyfriend house for supper.
@JazzyS its nice that you get to spend time with your mom. Have fun
@Sunshine-girl i want to start walking or a sport but its never been part of my life style but with time i want to add it to my schedule. Congratulations for your 10km!! Have fun today
Its nice to talk to both of you, have a great day sober