Ending day 3. Grateful and sober. A bit sad today. But it’s ok. I’m sober. Good night
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Yeah to day 3 
Sorry about the sadness love – i do hope that it melts away while you sleep. We are here if you need to talk about it.
Sweet slumber - good night 
i am well thank you for asking, i’m 24 days alcohol free, so grateful to be laying in bed knowing i will wake up tomorrow without a hangover, now that’s a daily win i can celebrate!! 
in my decade-long struggle with alcohol, this is not the first time i’ve committed myself to sobriety - but it does feel like the first time i am invested in actual recovery - i am ready to change, deeply and thoroughly. so that’s exciting!
i am a sovereign mother (would rather say “sovereign” than single 
) i have a 17 month old beautiful boy named Elijah, and one of the reasons sobriety is the only option for me is because i need us to prosper!
so here i am, really desiring and believing in the best possible outcomes, and believing in myself while at the same time pretty confused with life, definitely in need of a lot of healing work, releasing and forgiving and whole-making … so i’m replacing active addiction with self-care practices that will support my growth. i found a therapist and start sessions with her tomorrow, i’m drinking more water and tea, developing a better skincare routine, spending more time in nature, spending time interacting with the beautiful souls on this app and just really investing energy into deepening my sobriety and understanding how to navigate emotions and become a stronger wiser version of myself. i’m a musician and have always had the confidence to get in front of people and perform my heart out - but in private i’ve struggled with chronic anxiety, disorientation and of course addiction. now i’m ready to actually leave all that behind, i believe in something different and i want it, something that feels better, and more like rich-living rather than the survival-orientation i’m used to 
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Thank you for telling me more about yourself! 24 days is amazing 
. This is wonderful. Love it
Cravings… because I’m so bored. Kids watching TV. Me having done housework and everything today. Now this is the time where my thoughts wander off to alcohol. I hate it… but then I think about the nice sleep I had this night and how wonderful it was… so I just need to get some more hours around until it’s time to go to bed… what did I do when I didn’t have thoughts about drinking???
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Man oh man those cravings can be a bear to deal with especially if you have time on your hands. At the beginning, i played many mindless games on my phone, knitted, colored in a adult coloring book, walked around to get my steps in, baked muffins and cookies, did a manicure / pedicure, facial… meditated ---- anything to keep my hands and mind busy.
Wishing you the best with the cravings tonight – can you jump onto a meeting? We are here if you want to chat or could just browse around the threads.
Hoping for another lovely peaceful slumber tonight
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Hey beautiful - how are you doing today? Its been a super crazy few days but i feel like its about to taper down… hopefully.
just thinking of you
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Oh I hope you can relax this weekend. And I hope you are well my love. Sorry I’ve been so quiet these days. I’ve found an amazing sponsor and I’m doing all of what she asked me to do. I’m on Day 6. Don’t know how I got there but finally I have a plan. It’s so beautiful not to have to drink anymore. For the first time I really feel I’m not alone anymore. I can always talk to her or meet up with her. Just knowing that and that I have to call her sober at night wants me to stay sober. Thank you for Always believing in me and never stopped talking to me. You are a wonderful person 
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Hey beautiful
So lovely to hear from you. You’ve just made my day love - my heart did a dance reading your post today. So happy for your journey and thankful for a supportive sponsor.
I do hope you have a wonderful weekend. Mine is a bit busy but will also have some relaxing moments.
Much love dear friend. 
keep us posted if it’s not too much trouble. Always lovely to chat with you.
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Hey Julia — just stopping in to say hello.
Hope you are doing well. I was able to get my house completed and on the rental market. Fingers crossed that i get a good tenant. Just taking it day by day. Loving the fall weather here and gearing up for Halloween.
Good morning Julia – hope you are doing well my friend. Just thinking of you and wanted to say hello 
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I want to say hi. To day 0. Up and down the last weeks/months. I’m here again
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How lovely to see you again Julia Well done on not quitting on yourself. Day 0 is a wonderful start. We are here for you if you should need. Keep utilizing your tools and moving forward with your support system in place. Much love to you
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Just did 24 hours sober. Going to bed now. It’s already past midnight and I can’t sleep. So many thoughts in my head. But I’m sober. Trying to sleep now. Good night
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way to go with your 1st day completed Julia!! hope you get a great night sleep
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One day and some hours check in.
I went for 8km run. I saw the mountains and ran in the sun although it’s ice cold outside. I’m feeling very low. All my concerns and worries are a lot with my eldest son’s medical condition. I worry about the future and my very good friend told me I need to focus on the present. I can’t control the future and she is so right. So when panic creeped up on me while running I had to think about her words and that helped me so much. I know about his medical condition since 3 months but it only really hit me now that I’m sober. I would numb all these feelings away with alcohol so I could sleep. But yesterday I was sitting in the living room. Sober. Thinking about him and just had to cry and sit with my feelings because I can not numb them anymore. I have to be a sober mom. Being there for my kids, especially him!!! So these are the thoughts and feelings I have right now.
Running helped. Now getting ready for the day and enjoying a sober Sunday with family.
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Went to bed kinda early. Sober. Woke up at 3:45am to Go to the toilet and now I can not go back to sleep. Head is back to my kids disease and my level of fears and worries are high. I’m glad I didn’t drink and I’m still sober but I just hope this anxiety and fear goes away…
Read a lot on here now, hopefully can go back to sleep because my alarm goes off in 2 hours…
Good night 
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oh sweet friend - i do hope that you are able to get back to sleep and get a good nights rest tonight. I can’t even imagine all the anxiety and fears associated with a child’s sickness. Sending you comfort and so much healing energy.
Grateful that you are managing to stay sober and clear minded for your son right now. Big hugs to you love. Here if you need a shoulder to lean on
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Day 2. I could manage to get to sleep again. It is so much easier to get up in the morning not feeling intoxicated from the previous night. Grateful for being sober today. Thanks @JazzyS for always talking to me. Lots of love to you
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When I am troubled by thoughts in the night, I use the Serenity Prayer as a mantra to ease my mind and get back to sleep. I can match up the words to my breath and focus, which puts me radically in the moment. And in the moment, everything is alright.
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