Julia's accountability thread

Glad to hear you’re enjoying the meetings and fellowship. Never in a million years did I think I would benefit from AA. Now, it consumes most of my free time (not just meetings but all the activities). The friendships I’ve made are authentic and fulfilling. There’s no better way to spend my Saturday night than going out with the ladies after a meeting.

This never gets old. Every morning we wake up sober is a blessing. I hated mornings back in my using days. I would cringe at the sound of birds, knowing I didn’t get enough sleep, if any at all, and having to go to work feeling like shit. Mornings now are beautiful. Taking my doggo for his walk and listening to nature is the perfect start to my day.

I also wanted to add that your sunshine thread is what drew me here in my early days. I was scared I wouldn’t be liked and didn’t know where or what to post…i came across your thread and everyone seemed so friendly, so I made the leap and you all welcomed me with open arms. Thank you Julia for giving me that space I needed to feel apart of this community. :heart:

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Good evening you lovely people, hope you are all good. Day 49 tonight. I don’t even look at my counter each day anymore. My work for sobriety has become so normal. Praying in the morning. Sometimes going for a run before work in the morning. Calling my sponsor. Writing my gratitude list. Going to in person meetings or online meetings. It’s becoming a routine which I am able to integrate into my day. Would you have asked me some months ago I would have said God no. This is way too much work. I don’t have time for all of this. I have my family, kids, work etc… Now it has become just a part of Me

I should be so happy today. It was my last day of work befor going off on holidays for 2 weeks. We are going on a cruise in the Mediterranean sea. Husband and kids and my whole family in law… I even bought internet so I can attend meetings and stay connected to fellow AA people and my sponsor. But I’m feeling kinda down. I really am prepared mentally for a sober holiday but still there are of course some thoughts of it. Not that I want to drink but these thoughts of being sad not to be able to be normal… This is my second sober holiday. In 2019 I did a holiday sober. It was good but also kinda hard. I had a lot of cravings and I fought so often. The difference is I didn’t have AA, no sponsor, no program, no big book. I really just hope I can make a memorable sober time with my beloved ones… I did have TS already at that time and I think that’s what got me through all the lovely people on here…
Thank you for reading. Just needed to vent. Now I’m a bit better because life is so beautiful being sober and I never want to give this away anymore

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49 days girl! This is amazing!!! I am so happy to see your check ins and all the progress you are making. All the connections you have made and all the work you are putting into your recovery. Damn fantastic work! :muscle: I am so very proud of you.

Mediterranean cruise? Oooh that is awesome – very excited for you and your family. I am glad that you got internet and will be able to keep some support handy for yourself. Remember that the poison will have nothing to offer and you are now living a normal life (the other numbed version was not that – i try to keep this in mind for myself). Cruise ships usually have a meeting area for recovery groups. Maybe ask the front desk about this when you board. So many activities to do on board and so much fun to be had. I do hope that you are able to shake the FOMO feeling and continue to be the badass that you are :hugs:

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Thank you so much my dear friend. How are you these days? Hope all is fine! I love reading your posts on whatever thread. Love just reading it! Thank you for always being there!!! :heart::two_hearts::heart:

My sponsor actually told me about AA on the cruise I should look out and she reminded me wherever I go my higher power is going with me and I can write or call her whenever I need to. I just love her. She also never gave up on me and I had some starts with her…
Big book packed, my book for my gratitude list packed and my higher power is packed too. I just needed a good sleep I think I’m much better today. So in a little while when the car is packed we are driving off to Venice. Holidays are finally starting. What a difference. Normally I would be with a hangover today In the morning after I had “celebrated” my last day of work yesterday. I’m so happy this life is in my past :pray:t5::pray:t5::pray:t5:

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Hey beautiful friend - see you are too sweet. :people_hugging::smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

I am doing well thank you for asking. Still dealing with some health issues but I know they will pass. Grateful to be doing it sober and getting this new lease on life.

So glad that you are to feeling better and changing your mindset. I know you will have a blast! I can feel the positive enthusiasm in this post.

Glad you were able to talk to your sponsor and that she will be available for you if you need. I love her! You are well supported girl… remember that you are not alone.

All packed and ready for an amazing adventure. Hopefully we will get to see some pics (hint hint) :smiling_face:

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Arrived in Venice. Sleeping in the hotel. This is the view from it. Just had dinner. Now bedtime and tomorrow onto the cruise. 50 days tonight. Sober life is good. Sober holidays are Great :smiley:

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Oh that is a lovely view! Congrats on your 50 days love – how amazing is that :muscle:

Yeah it is! So happy for you girl!
Hope you have a great nights sleep and enjoy your cruise :hugs: :heart:

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Day 52 here. It’s actually just past midnight. Second day on cruise. Today we went to Kotor, a beautiful coastal city in Montenegro. Absolutely breathtaking. Doing activities is the best for me. I even went to the gym in the morning. It’s on the last floor of the cruise right in the front. You have a beautiful view while working out. I thank my higher power so much these days on the cruise. The nights are the hardest. Everyone drinks. And there is alcohol available nonstop… But I just stick to whatever my kids drink. And they have a lot of fun without alcohol right… Tomorrow I will ask if they have AA on board if not I will do an online meeting… it’s a beautiful holiday. And I’m proud of myself making sober memories with my family. My husband said tonight I’m a hero for him. He really admires me for what I’m doing because he said he can imagine how hard it is to stay sober around all this… This gave me even more motivation :two_hearts::two_hearts::two_hearts:

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So happy that you are enjoying your holiday so far! Love that you are keeping busy and staying sober my friend. Keep at it – you are a rockstar! Love that your hubby is noticing your efforts and vocalized it. :heart: :heart:

Was just thinking of you - appreciate the update love. Keep having fun and doing it sober :wink:

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How’s the holiday going love? Hope you are enjoying yourself :blush:

Hey girl – been a while. hope you are doing well :hugs:

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Yes indeed it’s been a while… Dearest friend I hope you are super well! I had to start again and I’m now on day 23. Every day I’m going to a meeting and every second day I’m going a f2f meeting and actually doing the reading and step work. That’s the deal I have with my sponsor. She was willing to continue with me but that’s the work I have to do and this IS working. So yes I’m doing well at the moment. Tried soooo many different meetings the past weeks and all of them are great! Now off to a run in the sun here. Have a great day my friend

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It is so lovely to hear from you. You have been on my mind a lot and I’m glad to read that you are back on track and doing well. Bless your sponsor and for you doing the work!

23 days is impressive and it is good to see you working your recovery :pray:

Much love my friend - hope you enjoyed your run :people_hugging:

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I am glad you are starting again… Day 23 is super…I am glad you have a sponsor to work with you to succeed… Stay connected and let us hear from you often.

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Thank you @JazzyS and @tailee17. I hope you are all well. I had a wonderful weekend, (another weekend sober). Met with my sponsor yesterday (we meet very very regularly now and I’m doing the reading right away when she tells me to do) to continue reading in the big book and the 12 steps book. I feel always good after…
Day 25 here. Have a great start you all into this week

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Lovely to see you putting in the work regularly with your sponsor. 25 days is fantastic my friend.

Keep this beautiful momentum going :muscle:t4::people_hugging:

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