Hi Julia gareth here I just wanted to let you know if you don’t already know that you are doing fantastic and the strength you continue to show is amazing. 
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Thank you Gareth. That’s very sweet!
My mother in law got up before me today, took care of the kids, took small one to kindergarten and I could go for a run. 7km. It felt so so good. It’s a hot day today but in the morning it was still chilly. I love running. Normally go 10km but I had not so much time because of work.
I felt so stressed that my parents in law would be here now I’m actually enjoying it!!! Since the pressure of drinking has lifted which was so much in my head.
The other day I thought noone ever forced me to put down a drink my throat (literally) right? It’s all me. I have it in my hands if I drink today or not. Today is a good day to be sober.
Whish you all a beautiful sober Friday
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Pants!?
Is that you? It’s gotta be. Wow! It’s so nice to hear back from you.
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I thought of it but I didn’t know his name on TS anymore. It’s been ages right? I’m not sure if it’s him…
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Happy Friday Julia
What an marvelous way to start the day. I am happy to hear that what was going to be a stressful visit is now a helpful visit.
Here’s to another sober weekend my friend - cheers!!
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7pm at night. Chewing on liquorice (my favourite gummy bears) to beat the cravings. Fuck these thoughts annoy the shit out of me. I do miss this fucking alcohol. This first glass that makes me feel so good. This warm tingly feeling running down my belly. This warm summer night and the sun still shining and it’s Friday. FUCK!!! WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE THIS DESEASE? why can’t I drink without a bad conscience… Yes I won’t drink because I know it’s ending always bad but I do miss it so much 
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It is indeed me Kevin how are you doing mate🥰
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Hi Gareth, good to see you. I hope you’re keeping well 
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Julia - another amazing sober day in the books.
Do not romanticize drinking. We can still enjoy the warm fuzzy feeling with many non alcoholic beverages which dont come packed with guilt, shame , hungovers, short nerves, physical and mental health issues and…well the list could go on and on.
I think weve been given a gift - we get to enjoy life and all its ebbs and flows as they come. We dont need any substance to help make happy times happier or numb the sad times. We bring the happiness and we have healthy tools we can use to live life on lifes terms.
Have you tried making mocktails? Cool summer drinks that can be refreshing.
Im sending you much love my friend!!! Happy Friday and a happier sober weekend ahead!
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I’m doing well thank you how are you doing.
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Doing great thanks Gareth. Life is good. I don’t post much on here anymore but I do like to still read sometimes
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That’s brilliant, the life is good part of course🥰
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Thank you
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Thank you all thank you especially @JazzyS Jasmine 
you are so right. It’s just in my head. I had dinner shortly after that and it completely went away. Safe in bed. Another day done
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Awesome. You’re back. I’m doing well, thank you
Oh my goodness so good to “see” you here Gareth! Hope you are well. 
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I know what you mean. Thinking that my DOC actually made me feel good. In the moment, myself really thinks I’m getting the best thing in the world! And that there’s nothing better; nothing that comes to 1/10th of the pleasure that my DOC offered.
But I’m telling you that I was wrong. That my subconscious addicted self is being lied to and lying to me. My mind is being duped. I’m falling for an illusion. Because the truth is our DOC’S have no value. They are worth zero dollars. They are completely worthless.
Because when I use, after the dopamine wears off, I’m left more stressed, more depressed, more anxious, more craving, more obsessing than ever before. Our DOC’S don’t fill a void. Instead they create one. They leave me with nothing except the desire to have more.
Here’s my favorite example. Imagine someone walks up to me and gives me $1500 in cash. Initially, I’m elated; I’m stoked! But later, I discover that this same person stole $2000 from my bank account. Did this person actually give me $1500? No. He stole money from me.
But instead of calling the cops on him, what do I do? I seek out this person so he can do this again. Trying to get that same rush of receiving cash while my bank balance continues to decline. That’s what our drugs do. They give us the illusion of pleasure while they’re actually taking away pleasure, and leave us wanting more.
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Well put Kevin
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On point 100%!!! It makes so much sense
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