Hey guys so today December 4th is my grandmas birthday shes been gone for 3 years and ill be going to visit her grave for the first time since being clean i knkw she is very proud of me i just wish she was here to see this and i sometimes get angry that i didn’t do this in time for her to see it but i live for today i cant sleep right now so i figure id vent i got so much more to say but i dont want to take up too much of anyones time im still kicking it doing great just pushing through hope yall are well and healthy god bless all of you thanks for reading my post
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I understand you’re thoughts and sadness about you’re grandma being not around to see how good you are doing. Maybe it helps a bit to be at her grave, maybe with some nice flowers?
My mom is cremated and I have some of the ashes in my home in a special candle holder. When I burn a candle it feels like I’m a bit more connected to her. So maybe being at her grave helps you to connect with her even more 
She sure is proud of you!
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Yes she is.
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Im so sorry you lost your Grandma, she would be so proud of you for getting and staying sober even though you miss her 
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So sorry for your loss and feelings you are experiencing. I too thought of my Grandma today. Her Birthday was today also. She was born in 1904 and been gone a long time. I believe in remembering is the best celebration of their lives. May you find peace on your sober journey today!
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