Just a reminder of the way things were

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Been working crazy hours at my martial arts school. 14 hour days Monday through Thursday, 8 hours on Friday, 7 hours every other Saturday.

Maybe it’s the stress, but last night I went to bed exhausted at 10:30. Woke up at 1:30 and couldn’t get back to sleep. Maybe dozed for 45 minutes total before my alarm went off at 5:30. Had to teach a class at 8am for our summer program.

Now I’m sitting here feeling like total crap. I remember this feeling. This was what my regular daily hangover felt like. This was what “normal” was. At least I have solace in the knowledge that this feeling isn’t from drinking. 2,418 days since my last drink.

I can’t believe I used to wake up every day feeling like this.

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That’s some mad hours you know you need to look after yourself too all work and no play is a dangerous path, anyway you know best :+1:

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Had been thinking about you recently!

Sounds like a breakneck pace but I’m glad you’re doing what you love. Having watched my Dad run his business growing up and as an adult, I’ve seen how much effort and discipline it takes to make it happen - and in return, you have the freedom of being your own boss.

Discipline leading to freedom…hmmm, I think I’ve heard someone here mention that before! :slight_smile:

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Crazy what we did to ourselves, and thought we had fun doing it…crazy

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I can relate so much to your post.
The past few nights, my dog woke me up at 3am to go potty and I couldn’t get back to sleep. I’ve been averaging 60 hours a week at work. It caught up with me today and I’m sitting here at work feeling like crap, wondering how the heck I did this daily for years. To think this was our “normal” is crazy.

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Hey @Yoda-Stevie good to see you checking in with sobriety in tact. Be wary of burn out.

Keep on keepin on

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Yep, looking and feeling like I just crawled out of my sea bag. Don’t need to see that shit ever again.
You, Sir leatherneck might want to take some extra rest days throughout the month… Feel better soon man.

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Wow can i ever relate to ur post. When i do the awake overnight shifts with my son, im like a zombie the next day. Being awake for days hits way to close to home and reminds me of when i used to use drugs. Its amazing what we put our bodies thru during our addictions. Insanity for sure.

I really hope ur able to find some rest soon. Those are incredibly long hours uv been working lately. Sounds like uv had very little time for urself. Also… really impressed with ur sobriety time by the way! Great work!!

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It was such fog we kept ourselves in and didn’t even realize how bad our vision actually was

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Im dealing with something similar. I was recently promoted to a management position and I’m dealing with what i think may be imposter syndrome? Like i dont deserve it or its some cruel joke and will be taken away from me. So to compensate I’m working 12 hour days and on weekends trying to proove mysef. It almost feels like some sort of new addiction in itself. You got this. Remember to take some time for yourself!

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I sooooo love waking up 1)Knowing where my wallet and keys are. 2) Knowing what I did last night and that I did NOT do or say anything stupid. AND 3) Waking up feeling decent and with energy. AND NO hangover.

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I’ll drink my non alcoholic drink to that one :cup_with_straw:here’s to never losing my 17 handbags again :face_with_thermometer:

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