I’ve had enough. I’ve tried many times before and only made it 50 days. I’ve reached the end of my rope this time. I’m constantly blacking out, doing stupid things, drunk texting people, embarrassing myself in front of a female friend. I have 2 DUIs and I’m still driving around drunk sometimes. I can’t keep doing this. My mental health is also suffering. I get irritated at the smallest things and my relationships with people important to me suffer. This has to stop. So I dumped my trusty handle of vodka down the drain today and I’m 12 hours sober. Here’s to the next day.
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Welcome pal! Keep coming back!
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Don’t drink today. No matter what. No. Matter. What. And that’s how you start stacking days.
If you’re ready to try something different, a meeting of a program like AA or NA or Smart Recovery or Refuge Recovery is the way many people have achieved an ease and comfort in sobriety.
Blessings on your house. 
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I remember that day. I hit bottom the day before but had two handles left (long story there). I slugged nearly a third or so of the handle and felt nothing. Absolutely nothing. At that point I knew the gig was up and I called for help. All I can tell you is that you don’t have to live like that any more man.
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That’s a tremendously hard thing to do. I know I’ve been there and done that myself. Good for you. That’s a great start. Keep it up.
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You can do this! But you don’t have to do it alone. Come on here often, chat with us, talk through what you’re going through and meant ppl will give you advice, wisdom and support. Read a lot on here, and put your plan on to place. Highly recommend a support group like AA celebrate recovery. Sharing this experience with others will make it easier. Feel so very proud of yourself right now, you deserve to. You are worthy of a happy and healthy sober life! Because you matter. Wish you well 
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Wow I did not expect so many replies so fast! Ive
even reading through other threads and The amount of support in this community is overwhelming. At least I know where I can go if I’m feeling distressed. I’m definitely going to try to find some meetings near me. I’ve wanted to go before, but I was always too nervous. But I need to accept that I can’t just do this on my own anymore. I need help.
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So proud of you for this! I felt hope when I finally poured all the alcohol down the drain. That’s a great first step. Keep going. One day at a time. Stay here with us. Lots of great info & advice here. You are not alone!!
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And, thankfully you don’t have to most ppl feel the same way, but that’s the beauty of courage, it opens up doors we never knew could open, and this door your about to walk through can be life changing, for the better 
this journey may not be easy, but it’s worth it! And it does get easier. Stay determined, and just don’t pick up or have that first drink. One day at time, everything will be okay 
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First of all, I just wanna say: FUCK YEAH BROTHA!
Dumping that vodka was badass. Respect!
Second: you can absolutely come here when you’re distressed, but I highly recommend you get in the habit of checking in and reading /posting even when you’re not distressed. Make this place a part of your daily routine. It’ll change your life.
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Hi Storm and welcome 🙋
I rembember my last day of drinking very well. That low feeling “why am I doing this?”. I finally had enough 
So glad I worked hard to gaine my sober life back. I wish you the same 
What helped me the most was coming here every day to check in sober. It kept me focussed. Still here every day of my 394 days.
You can do that too, if I can so do you! 
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Best place for it mate! Well done on your first step
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Well done! Welcome!
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Welcome Storm, 5 hours to go for the first day. You can do it. Let us know how you are doing.
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Good move. I dumped like 4 12packs that I was hoarding + full bar of liquor down the drain. Hundreds of dollars worth of alcohol… no other time did I do that, and that’s probably why I kept relapsing. If you’re serious you wont keep it in your house at all.
Good luck. The next few days will be rough, but you can do it. Just remember “this too shall pass”.
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Is a handle a big 1.75 litre bottle m8? It’s not a ten we use here in the UK. I just read the update on your thread, it’s nice to hear that your doing better and settled on your meds. 
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Maintain that discipline bro! Do not let your resolve weaken. If you find yourself doubting yourself, by all means, come onto here and vent man.
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Oh hell yeah! I like your style! Too often people come here and aren’t really ready. That’s okay, they are not in that part of their journey towards sobriety yet. But I absolutely LOVE it when people come here and they have completed the journey towards being ready and are already in their sober journey. That’s what you’ve done, brother! You said, “fuck this, I’m done,” and you meant it!
Welcome aboard!
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Hey there,
I couldn’t do it on my own either. Sure, for a while I could stop for a day or two. (Couldn’t even do that toward the end.). But even then, i thought of almost nothing except the plan for my next drink. I had no idea how to live life without numbing with booze. Thank goodness I washed up here, desperate for help. A couple of days later, I found my first meeting - and for the first time I realized that there were so many people who struggled - just like me. I also saw people who were living without alcohol - and seeming to do it happily. They gave me hope - and have given me my life back.
I have to work on my sobriety every day. I still fight the mental and spiritual aspects of the disease, but man…life is soooo much better on this side. Remember that you do not have to do this alone.
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You sound ready and determined!! It is truly a blessing to get to that place. And well done on your previous 50 days, that is pretty amazing.
Being in a constant state of either hangover/guilt/anxiety, needing/wanting a drink, drunk is so detrimental to your body, mind and spirit…how can we NOT want to break that cycle? But somehow we continue on, layering more shame, pain, anxiety upon ourselves. Ugh. It is truly a blessing to find ourselves fighting for OUR SELF, fighting for clarity, pride, health, happiness. What a gift to your self and all those who love and care for you.
Fight the good fight! YOU are worth it!!
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