I am just so down Today Been drinking for over 40 years I will get a couple days and then fall It’s killing me I just want to get through day 1 again I’m so embarrassed and just want to isolate Tired of me
7 Likes
I’m sorry to read you’re going through such a rough patch. Stay connected, have a good read around, this forum can be of great help! I apologize if I’m not too expressive, not one of my strong points…
1 Like
Hi Jon. Great that you are here. This app is my number one tool in my sobriety. I use this now over all forms of social media and doom scrolling for atleast a couple hours a day and read and read and read. Soo much to take in and contribute to when ready.
There is great wisdom and information in these threads. Good gratitude and daily check-in threads. Hobbies and interests aswell, just use the search bar. I see youve been here nearly a month though barely been active. Id strongly encourage you to engage with this more. AA or whatever your tool choice for working your sobriety is. Simply just wanting to be sober doesnt magically make anyone sober. Wasted years of my life thinking this. It is work and you will need to put in the effort. As they say, you cant walk ten miles into a forest and expect to leave it in 5. What worked for me atleast.. the hours id spend drunk were spent on working my sobriety. I was lurking and reading here for several hours a day at first. Even while drinking sometimes regardless of how miserable that made me ( just dont post while drunk as one of the thread rules). Listening to sobriety podcasts while driving to and from work. Reading quit lit books. Basically told to put as much time into sobriety/ recovery as we did our drinking.
At the end of the day.. it took me years of not really trying/ not truly listening to the right advice and wanting sobriety enough to actually put the work in. Im on my 118th Reset on this app after barely being able to string together a few days of sobriety for years on end.. Until now. Im now on my final reset as long as i keep working on my sobriety.
Sobriety truly is attainable. But just remember like everything good in life. It takes work.
You can do this!
6 Likes
I feel you. I don’t know you. But, I do know that I feel the exact same way when I’ve made a choice to give into an addiction rather than stay on the path of sobriety. I also know despite how it feels… embarrassed, disgusted, useless, etc - I am none of those things. I am none of them sober or not. But, I am making poor choices when I’m not. I am not who I truly am when I’m under the influence. Who I really am - all of the things that make me a good man - those shine best when I’m sober.
3 Likes
How are you doing now @Jonniec56
3 Likes