Hit the reset for drinking and smoking last night.
I had all sorts of reasons: band broke up, I was at a friend’s so didn’t have to pay for the beer, don’t have to work today, etc. It occurred to me that was all bullshit though…I drank because I wanted to, wanted the feeling, reasons are a dime a dozen. Maybe I’m coming to an understanding of the “powerless” notion. The addiction exists in a land beyond rationality…
Soldiering on in any rate, glad the band broke up actually, one trigger eliminated.