Just bought a six pack of beer. After 15 days free. Why . Why why! I’ve only had one so far… just want to throw them away… can’t believe I screwed up. I think being alone on Halloween made my brain think it needed it. FML. 
Don’t give into the second or third. Try to focus on something else, there are tons of great Halloween movies on! This is my first sober Halloween in a awhile, I feel you.
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You can do it, dont take another one, everyone screws up sometimes, it does not define you, focus on the future. You are stronger than you think
I wasn’t strong enough, drank them and then went out for a while last niget. Made it to work this morning but not drinking for awhile and hitting it hard gave me a major hangover. So disappointed with myself. All my hard work just gone
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Drinking doesn’t erase your clean time. Your hard work wasn’t in vain…you already know that you don’t want to do it again.
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Sure your clock resets but that happens to just about everyone recovering early on. Your new goal is to say I only drank once in the past month and that will be a great accomplishment!
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I never thought of it that way!! 
That is the thing. You are in the right path.
Well Thursday was a bad day something hit me wrong and instead of calling someone to talk me diwn I went out 25 miles to get my fix did more then I’ve ever done in a short time I’ve been so sick but I’m not giving up just starting over really hurts my kids have been so proud of me and it was the hardiest to tell them. I should be at hospital from how sick I got it was bad stuff. I’m sorry just venting getting my head clear again but then I get so depressed from money being spent think why did I do that the high feeling does last anymore that scares me too that it’s not enough. Well I hope everyone is staying strong if you need to call someone before you do something you can’t take back but if you relapses please don’t give up tomorrow is always a new day
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Brother, its ok. The fact that you already want to throw them out shows how much you want to change. Don’t punish yourself, just learn and grow. 
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Sorry too hear of your troubled last few days. I know the last time I relapsed, I’m only 14 days sober, I was so disappointed with myself. Then after I got over my withdrawal and I had a semi clear head I realized that I just fell and I was going to get right back up and start over. This has been my longest stretch I have ever been sober in 10 years. Some days are hard but you have us on this forum who understand fully what you are going through and we can all talk it out. You are worth the fight. Tomorrow will be one damn fine day!
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@Gibb thanks for reading. I feel so upset with my self just telling my kids was the hardiest but their still coming over for our Sunday dinner which start my readiness to stay clean from using. It would of been two weeks clean. But my son said we are still coming just starting over remember to call one of us first. I love my kids.
Try not to beat yourself up about it. What’s done is done and there is no changing the past. All you can do is move forward and try again. Plus, it sounds like you have people that forgive and love you. Just got to keep on fightin the fight. Keep your head up…
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@Gibb I do but then I the ones that like me f*** up oh its my dealer lol. My kids are my biggest supporter I have to get myself together one of my sons is at Marine boot camp and Grad. In early Dec. I promised I would be clean because I didn’t do it at his high school grad. I can’t do that again don’t want that worry on his day. Thanks again
I know you can do it!!! We are all here for you!
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Also, early congrats for your son! You should be damn proud…