Each time it happened, the amount of time you have to spend without alcohol, needed to start living a, more or less, “normal”, sober life was only increasing. Like almost a night sleep when you’re 20 to almost a week at your 40. This vampire can take your energy in a single “finger click”. And then you struggle with nerve system disfunction, absolute trouble with your stomach, you have to pass through a lot of difficult things to become alive. And in some time you just forget those struggles. And your second thoughts might get over you. But if you go without proper closes on a winter street you will get cold and ill and you will remember it all of your life. And you will probably never do it again. What makes those addiction diseases so “sticky”? Are we so “mind troubled”?(As a human kind, not just somebody particular)
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I can only speak for myself but I find addiction is like having a home but never cleaning or repairing it. Each day in addiction I thought “I don’t want to clean this, instead I want to do my addiction”; I thought “I don’t want to repair the stove or the plumbing or the electricity; instead I want to do my addiction”. Eventually, after more than 20 years of neglect, my mental and emotional home was a decrepit hovel, and it wasn’t a place that was welcoming to anyone, including me.
The dirt and disrepair of a house neglected for more than 20 years is also “sticky” - it takes time to make the changes to make it better 
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Thank you, a good comparison. It definitely brought some more sides of problem for thinking of.
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