Hey everybody, i first started to get sober like 2 years ago, and the far i got sober was 6 months and then i tought i could perhaps start to drink again. I´m here right now at the border of collapse once again feeling more lonely and fucked up than ever and it fucking hurts so much that I just wanna be sedated and I´m fucking trying not to do somethin stupid like go for a drink, but this is hard and honestly i don´t know what to do, I´m tired of this, I´m sick of feeling and getting hurt everytime, I don´t wanna isolate myself, I just think I really don´t know how to truly bond with somebody, and well i think this is like one of those moments where u realize is time to start again sobriety and recovery.
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Good idea to come here than have a drink. You already know how thats gonna make you feel. Like shit. Always did for me, old faithful fuckery. Stay on here, and live everyday for being sober. You know it feels great, just snap back into it.
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Sorry you are feeling this way and so great that you chose to reach out to the group instead of relapsing.
Remember that alcohol /drugs can cause numbness but that is only temporarily and being drunk/high is linked to so many negative feelings (guilt, feeling like shit, headaches, nauseous…etc) It is not the solution and definitely not a good reason to loose your sobriety.
Do you have “meet up” groups in your area? Great app to link with strangers that have similar interests. This may help you two fold- get out and meet people and do something thats of interest to you. Its very important for you to snap out of your head space. Hope you will be doing better soon - this is a great group for support so stick around. 
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I remember that daily fucking pain & misery. So I checked my 46 y/o ass, with help, into rehab. Grabbed the big book and listened/followed the others who had more time than I in the rooms. All is required is a desire to stop and a willingness to begin.
Can only share about me & what has worked for this drunk. I wish you well my friend & please remember we never have to do this shit alone.
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My end of drinking days are a lot like @Smitty97. I did rehab and IOP. I struggled for many years with alcohol and regret the time wasted. I’m so glad you checked back into this community.
Do you have a plan to get and stay sober?
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yes thank u for asking, I already looked for help between my closes one and I know I have their total support, besides I already made plans to go back to therapy wich really helped the first time I try to get sober, and just trying to live one day at a time.
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One day at a time. Seek out AA meetings in your area.
You have a few things going for you, wether you know it or not.
You’ve been sober before, so you know how that feels.
You’ve recognized that you’re not the type of person that can have 1 or 2 (none of us can).
You’ve reached a point in your life where “enough is enough”.
Now time for the fun part, the daily grind. You can do this.
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That sounds really good. I’m so rooting for you. Taking the next right step and lining one day at a time is fantastic living.
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When i was beat and down nowhere to turn i went to AA and it worked still sober wish you well
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