I’ve been struggling with using 
for years. I’ve tried numerous times to stop. The longest I’ve been clean is over a year. Idk…it’s like it has a hold on me. I know the people around me don’t help, and the women love to party…
I just don’t know how to rip myself from it. I’m solid for a few days, then right back to partying, money drain, and sleepless nights…
Any advice?
That was my way off crack heroin and booze.
I struggled with it for years also. My DOC is crack cocaine. I would get 3 days clean and then relapse. Over n over. What i began to realize tho is that i had to be willing to go to ANY lengths to get clean. Meetings are great (in person or online), having a strong support system (for me my support was this forum), and then i had to make it VERY difficult for me to use. I couldnt be around anyone who used, didnt have it in the home, deleted and blocked all numbers of dealers, and made safety plans for paydays or any particularly triggering day that could increase the urges to use. My focus each day was on recovery. Reading recovery literature, daily reflections, journalling, etc whatever helped me get thru those cravings. Whatever u do, dont pick up and it will get easier over time to push those addictive thoughts away 
I wasted a lot of time on that merry-go-round trying to stop on my own. I’d last days or sometimes weeks but always found my way back to the substance. When I finally got serious about wanting to get and stay clean, I made an action plan and followed through. First thing I did was cut off all contact with dealers and so called “friends”. That same day, I started calling around for help and to my surprise, there were a lot of options. I decided on an intensive outpatient program (IOP). In patient rehab was my first choice but I couldn’t leave my disabled daughter. The next day, I had my intake for IOP and was able to start immediately. That 12 week IOP layed the foundation for my recovery, but I couldn’t stop there. I knew I needed more, not only to maintain sobriety but to get to the underlying issues. I then transitioned into AA (NA is not as easily accessible in my area). Working the AA program has given me my life back. I’m coming up on 4 years clean, and life is amazing. Sure, I have a lot of shit going on just like everyone else but I have tools now to cope.
Honesty, open mindedness and willingness are the 3 key things needed for a successfully journey.
Y’all are amazing! Thank you. I just discovered this forum and I think it’ll be a big help. I think it’s time to start going some extra lengths to stop this shit…it’s been ruining my life and stunting my growth
I actually made plans today for a couple women to come over to ski and play…I think I should cancel it
Honestly this forum (and of course doing the work) was what got me my 18 months today clean and sober. I honestly never thought that id be free from addiction… that id always be using something. But it truly is possible to get off drugs and alcohol. Take it 1 day at a time. Even 1 hour or 1 min at a time if u have to. And come on here first to ask for help if ur having the urge to use so that we can help u thru it
Thank you for the support Butterfly! Lord knows I need it. I’m going to take your route you and Lisa have…cut ties, find meetings, and use this forum for communal support. I randomly downloaded not thinking it would help at all, but I have a change of heart. Having others who are also, or have been, in the same boat really helps mentally.
Also, CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR MILESTONE 
Thank you so much! I appreciate that 
Im glad u joined us and have already made some great decisions to support ur recovery. You definitly wont regret it