It’s been about 6 weeks and it feels like a lifetime. So far I really haven’t experienced many advantages..I still sleep like crap only now my thighs itch as well (a side effect that should have ended by now). I know I can’t drink again unless I want to re-experience my 6 week old disaster that sent me here. But every time I go past or into the convenience store where i bought my pints of vodka I get this tightness in my chest. Not helping matters is the fact that we are moving in 25 days and are packing or disposing of 39 years of collected stuff!
Helping matters is talking here. Have a great weekend! Weather here is beautiful but cool atm.
Congrats on 6 weeks. Im at 12 days. I wish i had a way to make this first days fly by. 39 years of collected stuff must be alot. Hope everything goes well with the move.
Hi Bob, thanks for posting. Congratulations on 6 weeks…. For me that’s about 84 pints when I was considering the benefits of sobriety. You are in a rough position with an upcoming move. As if getting sober wasn’t overwhelming enough. I know my alcoholic brain wanted to use any excuse to convince me that NOW is just not the right time to quit. The Big Book describes alcohol as CUNNING, BAFFLING and POWERFUL. I have found this to be true. I would also add PATIENT to that list. The stars have aligned perfectly for relapse. The upcoming stress of your move, 6 weeks of painful sobriety without any perceived benefits, bothersome itchy thighs….. This is living life on life’s terms. The worst part is that getting sober is the easy part…. Staying sober is way of living that will save your life. It’s a tough commitment. Your disease is planning the relapse party already. Stay Strong and Vigilant. The Promises will come true IF we work for them. Good luck and keep in touch!
@BobT I’m sorry you’re still struggling in early recovery again, but remember you drank for a long time and you need to treat yourself like you would treat a friend and encourage yourself, tell yourself stuff like “This will get better I know it” and, “I can do this” and let the time pass. Try to make yourself always have something to do, stay busy. Give yourself purpose. Set a step goal, 10k and spend your time getting your steps in and walking. Think about what it will be like when the symptoms do pass and it becomes second-nature to be sober. If your thinking/feeling is the problem, find something else to think about. Pick up a book, listen to a recovery podcast, fill your head with the good stuff you want instead of over-thinking. Remember too that the convenience store wasn’t the problem, YOU were the problem and you’re working to fix the problem.
Howdy Bob ive moved ten times in my life time some of them in my drinking days i know what its like i also packed my drink prob and took it with me dont know if you have tried a meeting they might help and for 39 years this sept ill be 39 years sober think i made the right decision wish you well
