I am torn between feeling grateful for having a well paying job and a lack of motivation to show up and work everyday. I have a bit of PTSD from the last two bosses who were terrible, manipulative, bullies. And the new boss has some of those qualities yet not as badly. I like the field I am in (most of the time). Maybe it’s the companies and bosses I am having trouble with. I have these irrational fears of not being good enough or people judging me at work causing me to lose motivation and just wanting to run and hide and give up. My anxiety is rising even though I tell myself that I am good enough, it will be okay, and I can handle it.
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