Hello everyone. I’m new here, but I had to share what happened to me last night. I know I have a drinking problem and are now making steps to stop, but last was the worse. I, of course, drink until I got sleepy. Well, I did go to sleep, but there was a problem with the white noise I used to stay asleep, so I got frustrated. The frustration turned into anger which turned into tears with me saying to myself, “I just want to go to sleep.” Then got mad at all the people who keeps believing that I can take on any issues and just ball them up and can handle them (weather they believe that or not), and that I truly find that I have no one that I can turn to without being judged. I got out of bed and went into my mancave and dropped a few tears, which in turn made me more mad, because I also felt like I could never cry in front of anyone, without them looking at me and thinking, “What the heck is his problem?”
So, in closing, I got a grand total of maybe 2 hours of sleep last night. On one hand, it sucks because I’m so tired. On the other hand, I’m no longer taking my drinking lightly.
Good on you for reaching out thats what we are here for, I found Allen Car super helpful to change my minset anout drinking early on i hope it helps you too
Hi, pretty new on here myself. I tried online meetings with AA and smart recovery. I just wanted to sit and listen the first couple of times but some wanted to turn my camera on and some even chucked me out because of the camera being off!! I would say for me, it’s a residential rehab that helped the most, they made me realise that alcohol was isolating me and it definitely wasn’t my best friend as I thought!! Although I have never been a reader, I have to admit books are helping massively.
It’s OK to be scared. It’s OK to try different meetings until you find one that suits you.
I used to rationalize that because " meetings aren’t for me" that my only option left was to drink. Now I recognize that as my addiction and my denial. Living sober, by any means necessary, is far superior to the alternative!
Just wanted to update everyone. I had a lot better night, last night. I’m still having problems with my drinking, but I did go to and stayed in bed. baby steps, I guess, lol.
A book by Allen Carr (Easy way to Control alcohol) changed my perception of alcohol forever… I will add that it may be triggering for somebody who has already stopped drinking though.
The other audio book that was extremely helpful to me was “This Naked Mind” by Annie Grace. Keep doing what you’re doing, the seeds are being planted. If you do something sobriety related everyday you’ll find more success.
I walked many miles listening to sobriety podcasts. Most of the sound i let into my ears was sobriety related.
The shair podcast and recovery elevator were 2 of my main ones… it’s hard but the first 5 days are the hardest, take it 1 day at a time don’t worry about tomorrow, it’ll sort itself out.
Have you had any luck quitting? Today is hopefully my day 1.