Wow it’s been awhile… I’m looking around and down and out about my drinking. Two days sober now and frustrated. Went bowling last night and went from a 117-202-117. I was everywhere when I was drunk bowling was natural and easy. 160 avg. My friends laughed at me and said I almost had a perfect trifecta and laughed (I took as a insult). Having small cramps today. Everyone was drinking. When people got off they would say, man I’ll just get beer it always helps. Very hard day. Looking around family and friends are struggling with beer also. My depression fine actually in a good mood. Very difficult to talk to my wife about any of this cause she doesn’t understand depression or alcohol. I’ve asked her to check in or talk even sent her a few articles that we’re good and no responses.