So I was doing my nightly inventory (review of my day). The question came up, “Were you dishonest?”. Since being clean I have done much better being a honest person. Not just with others but with myself too. But… I realized that I had not been completely honest with a stranger. I was picking up a package at the post office and I needed my photo ID. I knew it had been expired since Dec 2020 but I had been using it many times to pick up my packages for Xmas n holidays n stuff. Anyway, the clerk finally catches that it’s expired and she says she can’t give me my package. I had other cards along with my lease proving my address cuz the address on my photo ID wasn’t accurate. I told her… (and here comes the lie)… “I only realized it was expired last week, when I was organizing my wallet and getting rid of a bunch of stuff I don’t need anymore. I dont smoke or drink or go to clubs that require me to show my ID… so I didn’t know until recently”. Like I said I knew it had been expired for a long time. I told a lie so that I could get my package. It would’ve been sent back cuz I wouldn’t have had the time or money to get a new photo ID. So I lied to get what I wanted.
At the time i didn’t even really notice that I lied. It’s a small lie but it is still being dishonest.
Anyway, I thought about it. Realized that I need to do my part and take care of my responsibilities (in this case, keeping on top of stuff like this). I already have budgeted fir ID for next pay. Dishonesty is sneaky. For me it used to come in the forms of flat out lying, stealing, and even withholding the truth (which isn’t lying bcuz im not actually speaking false information… but it is being dishonest bcuz I’m not being truthful).
But really tho…
- What do u consider dishonesty?
- Is there times when being dishonest is okay?
- Levels of dishonesty? Some acts are worse then others. But is a “white lie” like what I did at the post office, okay or would it potentially create a snowball effect and hinder my recovery?