I’ve been so broken my whole life, now everything is being forced on me at once. I know I deserve everything and will use it to grow and I’m done running. But G-D dam it hurts to know I hurt so many people. All this noise is so loud and I can’t shut it up. I hope it doesn’t consume me. #day2
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Hey @Jewdude13, sorry to hear you’re struggling. Life can definitely get hard and seem overwhelming, but there’s always hope.
You’ve come to a great place for support. A lot of good people here who have been through a ton. If you can, could you share a little more about what you’re dealing with? Would be useful in trying to point you in the right direction for some help.
I have been neglected emotionally my whole life, which caused me to block out what I was doing and feeling and run on auto pilot. But I screwed up bad enough the police came for me and it’s all coming to head wether I like it or not.
Maybe that’s the best thing that could happen. The only way to move past a difficult situation is to deal with it. As painful as that might be we all need to start somewhere. The only thing you can control right now is you and how you are going to react.
Do you have any support from family or friends?
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I have no family support emotionally but they are here with me, I have an awesome girlfriend who I left till I’m ready to love, but we still talk and she’s there for me, and besides that I have lots of supporting friends. Getting caught is the best thing that ever happened to me, that doesn’t mean it isn’t the hardest thing I’ve ever faced and I’m only 21.
Seems like you have the right attitude and what a chance you have to right your wrongs and start over at 21! I’m sure it seems scary as hell right now, but you have a lot of life left to live. Choose the people that give you the beat advise, not just the ones that tell you what you want to hear. Just take what you’re going through one day at a time. Don’t think about the big picture, so much can change from day to day. Just focus on yourself and how you can learn from this and make a plan to make sure you keep moving in a positive direction. Wish there was more that I could do or better advice I could give. Just don’t let this defeat you or define you. Stay strong and let this be a new start. You’re young, seem to be willing to be accountable for your wrongs, that’s a great start.
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Yes sitting in jail I was thinking if this didn’t happen I probably would keep up the same cycle till I’m 40. That point about having people tell me the best advice and not what I want to hear I think is key to recovery and has been one of my biggest blockers. And I want to be held responsible for my actions because I never have been before, it’s just so hard that it had to happen with the cops and I wasn’t able to help myself before.(which is a blessing in disguise because now I can’t run away from my problems no matter what)
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Definitely think you are off to a great start. just be dedicated to making that change in your life for the better. Sure as hell won’t be easy at first, but you will definitely be a better, stronger man in the end.
As long as your on this site you might as well read. A lot of people on here that are dealing with current legal situations or have been through them. I’m sure you can find a lot of useful information on things they have done and are doing to help improve their situation.
Wishing you strength and good luck. Don’t be a stranger to the site. There’s a lot you can learn and you can help other people by sharing your story.
Hey man, Jewish dude here too haha. Same boat, at basically the same age, 22. Just wanted to say welcome to the community, I look forward to seeing you around.
Mind if I ask what noise you’re referring to? There are many people on here who have found ways to actively fight their sex addictions, whichever they may be in specific. For me it was porn addiction that brought with it constant masturbation, which I blame chiefly for my emotional blunting of sorts and my personal isolation. Working on it though. Just passed 260 days. On to the next one.