I used to use this app years ago when i first decided to get sober. I remember how low I was having woken up to an entire case of beer gone. Not sure how I didnt get alcohol poisening…I got sober for awhile after that but this was years ago.
I thought maybe I’ve grown out of it or changed and started having a beer or 2 and that was it once in awhile over the past few years. I come crawling back to this place because lo and behold I am still an alcoholic. I binge drank and I admit I am ashamed and need to start over. So heres to day 1 of sobriety.
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Welcome back @Ladyracquel. You are not alone. It’s always one day at a time friend 
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I hate reading posts like this but I love reading posts like this. Mostly because you are back to fight another day and then secondly because its a great reminder for me that one beer is never what I am craving.
Welcome back!
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Welcome back, @Ladyracquel! You are far from the only person who has struggled to keep up sobriety, it’s great that you are ready to try again. You’ve got this!
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You’re not alone. I once had 18 months sober. Thought I could drink like a lady. I actually did for a while until I started acting a fool again. Got into a fight and even got a black eye. SMH I have 63 days sober today.
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This is super helpful, thank you!
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63 is amazing. Its strange that ive been able to fool myself for so long and then suddenly all my bad habits came back. I dont even have some major reason for drinking like that, nothing happened i just kept drinking like something took over my body.
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Welcome back. It happened to me too, several times, “I’m ok! It’s not too bad. Oh, it is that bad. How did I fall for my own bullshit again?”
So glad you are here and getting back on it.
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Believe me, I know to well about that. I didn’t even drink when my brother and daughter died but I find myself having a drink for no reason. it starts off slow and then out of nowhere I’m having black outs and driving on three wheels and a rim. SMH
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Everyone in here has been there. Many times for most of us.
All I can say is that I am glad you’re here. Keep coming back
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@Ladyracquel Hi! Welcome back. So glad to hear you joined this app and community again. We are all here to help you whenever you need help. Most people don’t get sober at once, often takes a few tries. Which is fine, we live and learn. Be proud of yourself for trying again.
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Welcome back! Glad you are here again and starting new. You got this!
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Me too pal. Once an alky, always an alky.
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Unfortunately, i had that same experience back in the day…it still haunts me. How did i not get pulled over, i was a complete lunatic and could have hurt someone.
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Thank you so much that means alot.
Wow Gabe I think I rememebr you, you have the same profile too. Glad to see you are still going strong.
Im on day 3 now I think?
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I’m glad you’re back!! 
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I don’t consider myself an alcoholic anymore. I am a non-drinker. However, I could become an alcoholic once again, if I were to resume drinking. No doubt that first few drinks I had would convince me that I can “moderate”, until that time when I have too much. I will have become an alcoholic once again.
No thanks. Coming up on my 7th soberversary in December. Too many great and wonderful things have happened since my last drink, and I have no desire to risk losing these things.
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As usual, well thought out and coordinated words of a sound mind.
Couldn’t have said it better, I’m still about 60 days behind you.
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I really appreciate this perspective. Sometimes the label alcoholic feels like a self fulfilling prophecy. Non drinker sounds alot better.
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