Anybody else have trouble staying clean when your vices are easily accessible? I live above a tavern and across the street from a pot shop. Right now I’m at home and trying very hard not to go out before they close. I’m not even on Day 3 yet and all i want to do is get high again.
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Have you thought of maybe trying an online meeting, spending time reading around the threads on here, make sure your not tired or hungry, maybe have a bath , try meditation I hope 
this helps you a bit
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Yes and no. It really depends on my mindset and my habits. When I am trying to keep addiction in my life - when I am romanticizing it, like doing my addiction would somehow be good or fun or “relaxing” or would relieve my pressure - when I romanticize it like that, I have trouble. I get obsessed. I am trying to control my addiction like that, imagining I can control it and have it “just a little”.
When I decided I could not control my addiction, and when I took responsibility for what that means, then it stopped bothering me. Taking responsibility for that (for me) means talking with people in recovery every day, it means having a daily sobriety renewal phone call with another person in recovery every day, it means attending at least one meeting a week, it means working on the personal emotional weaknesses and lies I’ve told myself and others over the years (I do this emotion work with a recovery partner).
The location that really matters isn’t the physical place you live. It’s the mental and emotional place you live. That location belongs to you, no matter where you are.
In the meantime though, can you do some self-care? Maybe a scented bath (Conor had a great idea there 
), or even order yourself a pizza. Get online with an online recovery meeting (Resources for our recovery) and meet some people. Do something that will help you get out of your head.
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