Sometimes you can have the perfect fiancé, family, money luxury. But still be all alone, all by yourself. Into your zone with no company. You don’t want to talk with anyone or meet anyone. Just sit alone have your drink and watch tv and procrastinate. I want to get out of this loop and accept my reality. Do my own thing and be happy without alcohol in it. I guess I have depression or I am just stuck. Whatever it is, it really sucks. I hope one day I can get out of this web. And live the life I have always imagined.
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You can do this, you have to really put everything into your recovery.
Once the first few days/week is done I felt I was not stuck inside the viscous cycle but standing on the edge of it, where I could see clearly how viscous it was, and it’s the point where you really decide that you dont want that life, that horrible cycle of the same thing over and over making us feel worse each time, damaging our bodies inside out.
Your here, we are here with you.
Make today your day1 hold your head up high and push through the first few days.
Your not alone we have all been where you are now, and some right now as we speak have chose not to jump back into that viscous cycle. There are many here on day1 join them 
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