I haven’t been on here since I was sexually assaulted and I’m doing better but tonight made me want to use again.
I was hanging out with my boyfriends friends and I called his friend “dad” as a joke and he took it serious so he was stern with me, then his friend messed up his car and his friend started freaking out and was helping so I was talking to him cuz sometimes talking makes you feel better… we started driving again and a screw came loose and his car got messed up again and he was upset so we called it a night and went to my boyfriends house. I can tell he’s mad, I was anxious all night because there was a lot of people and I get really anxious around new people or a lot of people.
After all that and tellin he is angry, I just am really down and tired and I’m not sure what to do. I don’t want to ruin his night more but I kinda feel like literal trash at the moment. Overall was a good time but me being super anxious then the other stuff happened piled on.