Welcome to Talking Sober, this is a good safe place to be when you are trying to not drink.
Lots of us have gotten sober during tough circumstances. What I found was that it wasn’t the people or situations in my life that kept me drunk, it was that crushing compulsion.
The first thing i think about is drinking. I wont even eat some days because i want to feel the full effect of alcohol
Just like that, that’s how it was for me too. The link above is very helpful to understand how addiction and sobriety works. Here’s some threads about how people here got sober and have stayed sober.