Hi all, long time no talk. Life has been one thing after another. I’ve been fighting, but finding myself losing touch with reality and finding myself dissociating and feeling depressed recently. My decision making has been causing me to engage in things (nothing terrible, just relationships and behaviors I rather not do). I end up just hurting myself and I feel like I’m not at the wheel and while I’m fighting it off, my reality has been skewed…Like I’m questioning all my thoughts, feelings, myself, and my decisions that I can’t get a clear picture of what I actually want. I haven’t done anything to go back on my sobriety, it’s just causing a negative spiral that I don’t know how to get out of.
Thanks for listening <3