So for the past year I’ve had this friend staying with me and instead of paying rent he paid me in dope. Everyday we shot and got high. He became a really good friend to me I don’t get out much and I have depression and PTSD and I tend to isolate a lot. Well I started a Subutex program and ever since then he’s been off with his girlfriend doesn’t even sleep here anymore and I know it’s probably better off that way but there’s an empty space in my heart and in my home. I’m trying to cope with it as best I can but it’s very painful to of lost my best friend. If anyone has any suggestions or advice I greatly appreciate it. I’m keeping busy by going to NA meetings and also going to church and I do have the support of my family and my friends but I miss him so much. Any words of advice would be welcome thank you.
Sorry to hear that. You will probably be better off in the long run… but that doesn’t make the change in situation an easy thing to deal with. It is possible that he doesn’t want to expose you to him using. It might be him trying to do the right thing. Fair play to you for fighting your addiction. Please stay strong. On tough days I try to keep thinking that tomorrow will be better… and it usually is.
When we couple our DOC with a specific person or persons, we actually create 2 seperate addictions.
Your brain wants the drug and your brain knows that this friend equals dope, therefore you crave the person as well as the drug. That’s just the science.
Now, I don’t know ANYTHING about you two’s relationship, but, what you’re describing raises like a thousand red flags. Perhaps this friendship was only based on the drug use? Or maybe it didn’t start that way, but changed into that kind of relationship and now his best friend is dope. I guess, if I can give advice here, I’d say you should really ask yourself if this friend is really your friend. Even if he’s a good person and loves you, somewhere in his heart; he can’t really be the friend you need while he’s in his addiction.
Perhaps his absence is making room for someone new to enter the picture.
Time will tell. 
My advice is for you guys to stay away from each other.
No I’m not in the UK I’m in the United States New Hampshire actually it is better for me to stay away from him because in my mind he’s dope that’s what he is he equals dope to me. I know I’m better off without him I just miss him I miss someone I guess my house is so empty without anybody here I always had people coming and going for drugs. So I guess I miss the socialization I also miss the dope but not that much the Subutex is working really well thank God. I just keep praying for strength to get through this and giving everything to God. Thank you all for your replies.
Totally agree with @MrCade. Give it time, it will get easier. Good job on getting this far, you can do this. One day at a time xx💕
Loneliness is a big part of recovery at first, because so much change occurs in order to make a sober life happen and stick. People, places and things… Recovery groups help to fill that empty/void feeling… it may take time, so focus on self care in between. I’m sorry you’re feeling lonely- I know that feeling all to well! Keep coming back and posting as much as you can 
You are never alone here!
What dose are you taking daily.
I can understand you missing the company but as you are aware spending time with any is those people can and will seriously undermine your recovery. . Your doing great by the way keep it up full steam ahead. 
Sorry for your loss I hope you get through this
Thanks my friend
So true about what the friendship is really based on. I messed up and f did Coke last night cuz he came by. I’m kicking myself for doing it. Being sober is far better.
You mentioned that you regularly attend church. Does your church have regular bible study groups or Life Groups, or something similar?
When we transition from our former lives as addicts, it means severing relationships that only existed due to our using. You are feeling empty, because you are looking behind you.
Turn around, face forward, and look ahead of you. Now you seek the clean and sober life, and there are tons of like-minded individuals whose lives are missing one thing: You!
Maybe join a volunteer service organization. Work with a private animal rescue. Get yourself appointed to the town beautification committee. Take a class. There’s a big beautiful world out there. Get off the bench, and into the game!
Yoda is right. ‘Nothing changes if nothing changes.’ And that includes friends, and sometimes even jobs. In order to really start recovery, you’ve got to put people, and places that could trigger you behind you.
Friends don’t talk friends into using, especially if they are trying to get clean.