I lost my dad to his addiction last week . I never thought I’d lose a family member to this disease . I always thought egotistically that it wouldn’t ever touch me or my family , but it did . I miss him a lot and there’s times that the thought of relapsing comes on strong , but I know that relapsing won’t change a thing . Except bury me too . I need someone to talk to . I need someone to lean on . I just don’t where to start . So that’s why I’m here .
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Hey welcome to the community. I’m sorry to hear about your loss. You’re right relapsing and going back out will only make things worse, and the loved ones were grieving over wouldn’t want that for us anyway. There’s a whole community of people here you’ll be able to lean on for support. Glad you’re here✌️ And congrats on almost a year and a half sober, that’s awesome
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Im sorry for your loss… Stay strong, You got this… Your dad would want you to keep pushing through. You are right, relapsing isn’t gonna do you any good… It’s not worth it, trust me… You will only feel worse… I relapsed after being almost 2 months sober… It’s One of the worst feelings… So trust me when I say, it’s not worth it… But now I’m almost a month sober and happy about that.
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Hey and thank you for welcoming me and responding to my post about my dad . It just doesn’t seem real a lot of the times , until it does .
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Hey J and yeah you’re completely right ! I constantly tell myself that my dad wouldn’t want me to fall back into using . It’s just so easy to say f it , you know ? But it’s also so much easier to say I don’t need it . I really don’t miss dreading the next morning or chasing the next high . So I try to remind myself of that . &’ congratulations 
!!! The first three months are always the hardest ! Especially the first month , but you got this ! Just keep pushing forward and remember what your future holds . Though I should take my own advice lol .
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I am sorry for your loss. It’s tough… Like, really tough. I lost my Mom a few months ago; she had been addicted to opioids for decades and was on her way to getting off them long term when it happened.
I know it’s hard, and the best thing I found to cope is acceptance. One thing she said before she left was, “Be happy I was here, not sad that I will be gone”.
I know your Dad is proud of the progress you are making on your life and recovery, just as my Mom was proud of me; Let’s choose to be happy they were here. (but it’s ok to be sad too). 
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Welcome 
I’m sorry to hear about your father.
This is a great community, so much supportive and caring people and I’m glad you joined us.
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I’m very sorry about the loss of your dad. There are always people here to talk to, lean on the forum whenever you need. Hugs to you
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I’m so sorry for your loss girl. I’m glad you have joined us … we hear you 
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Thank you 
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I’m sooo sorry for your loss . It’s the worst feeling in the world knowing you lost a parent to this horrific disease of addiction . But I do know he’s no longer suffering in it anymore . I know I have an angel in Heaven watching over me now . It’s been hard to accept that he’s gone , but the closer it gets to his funeral , the realer it seems . You know ? I just keep thinking that he’ll call me and say hey babygirl , but he won’t . I’m truly grateful that his last words to me was “ I love you babygirl” . My dad was trying to get clean too before he passed . Which was what made me even more angry . But you’re right , you only get one dad and one mom . &’ I’m blessed to have had him as long as I did . 
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I’m glad you have that memory of those sweet words from him… to hold forever dear and close.
Welcome to the community. Lots of support and people to talk to about your grief, your sobriety, your hurts and things even like your kitty or dog or lunch or dinner.
I’m so sorry your Dad was stolen from you. I know he is surely proud of the sober you xxx