Day 1555.
My higher power is truly incredible. I’m SO thankful for my sobriety and I wanted to share a little story.
Yesterday, I had to do a very hard thing. It was time to end the suffering of my best kitty friend who I had for 19 wonderful years. This was not at all an easy decision but I was shown time and time again that her day to say, “see you later” had clearly arrived.
Less than 12 hours before our appointment, I got myself together and made it to my meeting that I wanted to skip-those are the days I know I need it more than ever. So I went. In that meeting, we had a speaker who I had never heard before speak, he said he had no idea what he was going to say. And then spoke immediate about how the hardest thing he ever had to do sober was say goodbye to his beloved pet 6 years prior but he was able to do so sober. My higher power speaks through others. I thought about the last time I had to do this. It was also 6 years ago. I was no where close to sober. I was running from my emotions. I was depressed, couldn’t handle life and spent most of the next 6 months in bed as often as possible.
As I woke up in the morning, I prayed. I asked to be shown the way, like I always do. And sign after sign came that I was doing the right thing that morning and on the way to the vets. Angel numbers popped up, Angel clouds arrived in the sky, Angel wings showed up on a song I was listening to at the same time I saw those clouds, a car in front of me had a sticker that said “love” but the “o” was a pawprint. My old girl didn’t complain once about the ride, that was abnormal for her and another sign she knew it was time. She was purring, happy and loving instead. It was a very positive, peaceful and very smooth transition for her.
After I left the vets, I went to the ocean. Salt water always heals my soul. I KNEW that morning I would see a rainbow as I made my daily post that included a rainbow bridge poem. When my Buddy boy passed 6 years ago, I had a few friends send me rainbows they saw too. I expected that to happen again. This time, not only did my friends see their own rainbows during the day, I got this incredible gift less than an hour after my girl passed.
This photo truly does it no justice. This is not modified at all, it was SO brilliant and vibrant. I had never seen anything like this before and immediately I knew this was her coming through from that rainbow bridge. There was no rain, no reason to have a random rainbow pop up, other than I needed that message.
My higher power works in beautiful ways. I got home and it was totally sunny, yet raining. I later went for a walk in the woods and I was completely surrounded by butterflies flying around every step I took. The lightening bugs came out yesterday so I got to see magical lights flickering all around my yard last night. I asked for signs to know I was on track and I got them all day. Even on the hardest days, I was able to find peace thanks to my sobriety and my connection to my higher power. I’m blessed. I’m thankful. And I’m going to keep doing this work for different results in my life. Being able to have that when I needed it most is a true gift. 
I hope this finds you well my friends, hugs to you all!
The universe and our higher powers will always provide if we stay open and ask. It may not look like we expect it to but that’s the true beauty of it all, things usually turn out better than we expect if we can just allow it to arrive in the manner it’s provided for us. Lessons and blessings often go hand in hand. 
I was thinking I don’t know how the hell Mandi is doing this while healing from covid. Rest up!
