Hello, my name is wisdom because throughout this entire journey I hope to be the most wise person I know by the end of it. I have failed with my addiction over and over for almost 10 years, but I have had moments where I was free from porn for a whole 3 months without a problem. I will be taking a different approach on my addiction recovery and that’s how I train my mind. I know that I have trained my mind to only see one path for stress relief(porn/masturbating) but I know if I put the time in, I can train my brain to immediately run away and go a different path almost without fail until it’s autopilot. Just like I am triggered to watch porn, I can trigger my brain to go the opposite direction. Since I’ve put the time into watching porn in the addiction, I have to put the time back into recovering completely by training my brain specifically in the areas I’ve failed in. This is going to require me to train consistently every single day for the rest of my living life. I know that sounds depressing, but I want to never go back to wasting my life on watching porn that overall makes me less attracted to my girlfriend, having self esteem issues, always being mediocre, and giving up too easily. So I have to train my mind for an hour a day specifically for this, and it needs to be intense somehow so I will be able to make the right decisions when I need to.
Brain training method
- I will imagine scenarios where I get tempted. Like see my phone at night or feel stressed.
- I will feel the sensations in my body I feel when I get tempted.
- Then I would train myself repeatedly to calm myself down by taking slow deep breaths.
- I would then repeat the phrase Hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired?
- Which ever one it was I would aknowledge that and immediately leave the situation in my mind and tend to that need for food sleep friendship or an emotional outlet such as exercise.
I will try this for 30 days and update y’all daily.