You’re doing everything right: working to get in touch w yourself, investigating your pains, fears, wounds, wishes via connection w other living ppl. 
That work will lead to long term sobriety and nothing else will. We all had to do that who have been sober a while and live full lives.
Your doctor has outed himself as an absolute nit re addiction for his suggestion.
This thread contains a lot of stuff I think would interest you: Your #1 tip for sobriety (over 2 years sober)
Congrats on your sober time!