It is great, I agree! You can PM me your email and I will send over to you.
This whole thread is totally underestimated.
This thread saved me months ago.
This thread should be pinned so everyone struggling could come here and read some inspiring stories and ideas to be well, gentle with their mind and overall psychological health.
10 Likes
Thatās right. And it takes going through it to learn the lesson. Iām glad I began to appreciate the challenges because of the lessons they offer, as long as Iām willing to recognize them.
1 Like
I really needed to hear this tonight. Thank you!
2 Likes
Sorry, but I couldnāt help but giggle when I read that 
4 Likes
Omg that IS funny!!! How silly is that lol!
3 Likes
Iām having a hard time finding something to live for right now. Iām trying not to cry but itās not working. I hate the fact that it seems like no matter what I canāt do anything right and Iām tired of living everyday with sadness in one form or another. Iām so fucking sad about Faith that I really donāt have the fight to continue with life right now. Iām scared about the surgery tomorrow and the only thing I can think about is that maybe I wonāt make it through and just die and then I wonāt have to feel this anymore. So thatās really the only reason Iām thinking of going. The other thing I think about is just not going to surgery tomorrow and just get fucked up and not care what happens to me. I am so not ok that I really donāt want to be here. I wish she would have at least tried to be nice but I donāt matter to her. I know that it brings up things from my childhood but thatās just making me think more about why even try anymore because my heart has been broken my entire life and Iām tired of it. I donāt want to be here, I donāt want to have surgery and try and recover without Faith and I donāt know how to let her know what Iām going through. Iām scared to even text her because Iām pretty sure she would say something really hurtful back. Iām really lost and really hate myself and I thought I should at least let you guys know that Iām not ok right now and I donāt think I ever will be again. Thank you for listening.
8 Likes
I am so sorry that you go through this. I donāt know but it helps me when I am so down to replace the I donāt want to live by I donāt want to live like that anymore. This gives me back some strength to carry on.
You can do this. You deserve to love and accept yourself the way you are. You are worth it and you are good and whole the way you are! 
3 Likes
Thank you @anon74766472 I appreciate it. Iām trying to just let myself feel what I feel and not invalidate my feelings. This forum helps a lot. Thank you again.
3 Likes
Yeah, every feeling is right. But is the wish to donāt be there anymore not more a thought that follows a deep sadness, helplessness, powerlessness, grief. The realization that I cannot change this although I would give up even me.
Donāt give up on you!
4 Likes
Thatās so true. Thank you Iām feeling a little better. Weird how darkness comes in waves and itās hard not to drown in them. Thank you for being here I appreciate you.
4 Likes
Yeah, strangely it helps me just to speak about dark thoughts. They come and go in waves like maybe cravings. For me it is no threat as such as maybe some people think it is. It helps me to say what goes on in my mind. Once itās out there it is usually much better. Also I am aware of (now a little bit more) that speaking about sth like this scares some ppl.
2 Likes
Im so sorry that you are feeling this way @Rockstar24777 I wish I could take away your heaviness. I am not very good at saying the right thing always but I want you to know that I hear you and that Iām praying for you. It wonāt always be this way my friend. Please keep moving forward we can all just keep moving forward together. I hope all goes well with your surgery, I wish I could give you a hug. 
2 Likes
Yes talking about it sure does make it less intense but youāre right it does scare some people. Definitely grateful for this forum and for you all here. Thank you again so much.
3 Likes
Awwww thank you Sarah I appreciate that. Iām feeling a little better and I will continue to push through this it just gets really dark sometimes. Thank you for your kind words and support and especially the prayers thank you!
2 Likes
Oh Rob, I know how much it hurts. It shows you know how to love completely. I donāt have anything to add except you are important as the man you are, regardless of her not returning your love.
Maybe if you can look at it as youāre letting her go to not only save you but allowing her to live her life, as it were. She may need to do some growing and maybe itās easier for her by herself at this time.
I do remember heartache, itās all encompassing and itās soul crushing. You need to go through it though, cry your tears and DONāT lose yourself in it though, sweetie.
8 Likes
Thank you Donna very much and yes I love someone with all that I am and I canāt help it. I have come to think that she just didnāt want to be with me but didnāt have the courage to end it or she was going to end it very soon. I unfortunately have been reading things online about when a relationship is over and she had been doing like 23 out of 30 things that show a person doesnāt want to be with you. I donāt know how to feel other than hurt. Iām right back where I was before but almost worse. Thank God Iām sober or I really feel I would hurt myself if not try and kill myself like the last time this happened. Thank you for being a good friend. I feel stupid for running on and on about this but I have no one else to talk too. Thank you for listening.
7 Likes