Itās taken me 50 years but I finally get this 
That was beautiful 
For some reason Iām having a really hard time today thinking about my ex and it really sucks. I was doing a lot better and then all of sudden Iām back where I was a month ago and itās killing me. Just thought Iād vent here. Feeling worthless and like I donāt even know what Iām doing here anymore. Iām tired of the physical and emotional pain thatās been going on for months and I just want relief but thereās none in sight and Iām running out of reasons to tell myself it will get better.
Thank you @littlemisschatterbox I appreciate it. Itās one of those days and youāre right, it will be better tomorrow. Itās the part of not being good enough for them that really hurts my heart.
Thank you @littlemisschatterbox thatās really nice of you to say. Iām trying to be strong, it seems like thatās all Iām meant to be lately. I want to feel happy again, I hope I will be able too soon.
Rob, thatās not the case at all, you are good enough but for someone whoās worthy. Stop that stinkin thinkin!
Thank you Donna and thank you @littlemisschatterbox I wonāt give up, itās just exhausting sometimes.
Good on you for coming here and countering those thoughts. The life you had with her isnāt the one you want to live so quick letting those thoughts trick you. Given everything you have gone through you are more than strong bro, you are amazing.
Thank you sis I appreciate that. I just think that if I was so amazing then she wouldnāt have picked the other guy instead of me. Thatās just where my heads at and Iām trying to shake it but in reality itās the truth.
You are amazing and that is why she doesnāt deserve you. You need to pick you and have confidence there is someone out there worthy of you
I appreciate you all being here for me, sometimes my head is like a dark carnival. I think Iām going to take my meds and just go to sleep. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day. Love you guys.
The rollercoaster of life, but Iām glad youāre by my side. Get some good rest. Wishing you peaceful dreams.
Thank you Michelle Iām glad I am too.
Thatās interesting because Iāve never seen it like that. Thatās an interesting perspective. Iāve always said it was more like a battery.
