Currently 4 days clean off of meth. I haven’t been using that long, only 6 months, but I have in the past abused my Adderall prescription, got more from others, etc.
I came clean to my psychiatrist about everything last week. She took me off of adderall (was only 10mgs ir in the morning and 5mgs ir at noon) and prescribed me Provigil. Of course it feels like I’m not taking anything.
I’m determined to stay off the meth bc the past month it wasn’t even working anymore and I was miserable and crazy. I just really miss the adderall. To top things off, I have an eating disorder and my insane appetite is driving me crazy. I used to be anorexic, gained to a healthy weight, but just recently dropped some weight. Half of which I put back on in the past few days. I’m afraid it’s going to lead to a relapse.
I’m just miserable and irritable and feeling antsy. My stop date also coincided with the start of my PMDD which was probably a bad idea, but my counselor was ready to have me involuntarily hospitalized with how irrational and hysterical I was getting while I was using.
I just want to know if the hunger will get better? And my mood? I’ve never been a ray of sunshine…I was originally put on the adderall for treatment resistant depression and lack of energy. I just want to be able to get out of bed and function…nothing too crazy.