@Ravikamor @Dazercat I’m so planning to come to California! 
Becky, how could we trick Eric to join in the regular TS zooms regularly? 
Because it would be awesome!!
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Oh yeah, it’s definitely a dopamine rush thing! I’ve seen these pictures of brain scans, where a porn addicts brain is about as similar as a heroin addicts brain. Not saying it’s the same, but it’s apparently the same part of the brain that gets activated, when the addict does whatever their addicted to. I’m not a science person, I had my scientist friend explain it some years ago, but I can’t remember the details. 
Anyhow, good seeing you man! I’ve seen you post around here and there, I really hope things will work out for you! 
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Thanks Milele,
Everyone has hope for me yet I have no hope for myself…
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That sounds like shame. I know what that’s like. I hope we can turn that around.
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D159.
Today marks one year since my dad passed. It’s been a bit of a difficult day.
To commemorate him I’ll watch Finland play their first game in the ice-hockey world championships. He loved watching the world championships for sure.
When it comes to my addiction I feel that I’m doing ok. The daily calls with my sponsor keep me check as wells as the questions that I work on everyday. Working on step 3.
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Thank you! 
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hmm gotta think about that one lol
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D161.
Dang it. I feel I’m gonna have to be truthful to myself. I haven’t been mentally well in a few months. Just been kinda pushing it, and pushing it, trying my best to keep the facade up.
Yesterday I talked with someone about this and today I talked with my sponsor, saying that I feel more depressed than not. It just feels like my brain is broken.
I’m gonna call the mental health department that I’m signed in tomorrow.
I’ve got some good things to look forward to in the coming week or so, so that’ll keep my head above the waters.
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I think that is common. I certainly understand brokenness. And recovery has not been as easy for me as instantly making the opposite choice to what my brain has been conditioned to believe. It’s good that you’re getting the help you need. Even if it takes awhile, we don’t give up.
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Oh yeah, it’s true that it takes a while to re-wire.
And thank you, no we won’t give up!
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Thank you my friend! Love you too
And love this 
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Was in a similar head space yesterday and ended my evening with two Winnie the Pooh movies. Hope you feel better.
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Aww, Winnie the Pooh! 
Thank you!
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Hahaha they are! 
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Making depression my b*tch.
The mental health department is understaffed, so I’m not entirely sure when I’ll get my doctors appointment. But they’re working on it.
Anyhow, SLAA recovery is going ok. I’m on question 23 of the first 30 questions.
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Wow, that’s beautiful, thank you Olivia, my sweet friend!
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