A three days milestone in alcohol and smoking. I remeber passing those milestones about 4 months ago. In a positive way of thinking - this time feels a bit easier.
The morning started with a raging enthusiasm, which later was though of as a kind of euphoria, which made me feel worried to be honest. On this wave I cooked my breakfast and washed part of the dirty dishes, which was another good step.
Then the headache and some tachycardia happened, it made me lay down for several hours. And then the test of the day happened. One of my friends called me and invited me to his place to have a drink. I don’t want to describe what have I felt that moment, but I am sure you will understand me. So I told him that we can meet, but I won’t drink. Later he called me and said that his wife baught some great tea and they are making supper, and that he prepared cold beer and home made alcohol beverages for us. And it struck me, how can he not realise that it is a trouble for me, one of my closest friends, unbelievably said situation for me. Of course I didn’t go. Soldering my guitar and some music practicing helped me finish this evening. Though bad flashbacks made their attacks - why did I drink, why did I go there, why did I do everything, etc. Still with an endless headache. Said a night prayer, emotionally a good burst of reminding yourself that you have something good inside as well. I wish everyone to stay out of truble, be healthy, have a good and helthy rest of the lifes. May God help us and our souls 
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