I woke up in the middle of the night after having all sorts of these vivid dreams… dreams that I was smoking weed again and missing school because of it. Dreams that my stepdad cut me out of their insurance plan one year early because I’m a discrace to them… then when I woke up I just felt this feeling of hopelessness overwhelm me. It was so strong that I thought to myself “why am I even doing all of this? This isn’t who I am. I don’t belong at these meetings and forums and stuff” I felt like a totally different person. But I went back to bed and when I woke up just now Thankfully that feeling went away completely… I’m so afraid because my dreaded 36 days is coming up very soon and I never got past that before ever… I always end up with that exact feeling I felt when I woke up last night 
today is just starting out terribly. I’m honestly scared
Don’t feel hopeless remember it was just a dream trying to remind you of where you’ve came from and all of the feelings you felt it brought you right back to where you once were and you must count your blessings and remain great full that your not where you once where. And everyday you will get farther and farther from that day and never have to go back there
That link is a great refference thats going in my favorites. It’s like I have all the tools because I have this huge folder full of handouts and tips from my outpatient about relapse prevention and I could tell people what to do and what to look out for but when it comes to ACTUALLY going through those emotions myself it seems like it is hard for me to control them -.- @oliverjava
I had a dream last night that my husband was bartending and served me a very strong margarita. I woke up feeling so confused! And what the heck would that mean?! Thankfully, like you, the discomfort passed, and on with Day 11…
Dreams like that are normal. Thats when you know your trying to do better and make a change. It’s because you don’t want to give in your addictive side is like are you sure? Then tries to haunt you in your dream. I’ve had them too your not alone.
@Aliciaoceanxoxo that’s a good way of looking at it. Like my addict brain is saying “come on are u serious?” Thank you that made me feel a bit better. 
Drinking/using dreams are very normal. It’s a reminder of how far you’ve grown. Instead of well, that’s sounds like fun…it’s omg what’s happening, this sucks. I used to get them the worst around sobriety birthdays.
That’s @Melrm. That’s right on point because I received my month coin last night at my homegroup and slept with it besides my bed last night. Must have triggerd the dreams? yal are the best 
I’m on day 22 and I have recurring dreams that I subconsciously drink alcohol. Like I dream I come home from work, take a bottle of wine out of fridge and pour myself a glass. Then, after I have already drunk half a glass I suddenly realise 'omg, what am I doing!I quit drinking! I quit!'
The dreams are emotionally exhausting on top of all the other symptoms, but I guess it’s a good sign. 
Stay strong and keep going!