Day13. Thankfully I’ve made it another day. So lucky I have the list I got from @SassyRocks or else I don’t know how I would of made it through. I’m soooooo bitchy. Is this normal? Is this only going to get worse before it gets better? I literally blamed my mom for feeling the way, told her “all this just to make you guys happy and quit my drinking” smh I did apologize. Kind of scared me, now I’m questioning my motives? I’m doing this for my loved ones and my relationship because I deeply love my fiancé. But will I succeed if currently in my mind I’m doing this for them and not myself “”?
Going for a run to release this negative energy.
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Bitchy is totally normal. As is angry, combative, edgy, weepy, lethargic, manic, giddy…you name it, we feel it in early days and weeks. I cannot tell you the number of people who come to the forum in early sobriety and get so pissed off and upset and hurt and leave. I was almost one of them myself. One word can set you off. Whoa, it is exhausting!
But…it gets better. Our bodies adjust and our emotions adjust.
Many topics about this if you want to search. Check out PAWS as well. 
…and I love the run to release negative energy…I do the same.
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Thank you!! Definitely need to read that. This rage is consuming me. Thankfully work has been too busy for me to even think of sneaking in some drinks.
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Drugs and alcohol drastically changes your brain’s chemistry. Long term abuse and then sudden abstinence creates chaos. The side effects are irratic mood swings, anger, anxiety, apathy among an array of physical effects.
Will it get worse before it gets better? That all depends on you! Time will heal your chaotic hormonal brain, and a good program will help ease the symptoms. Do the work, reap the rewards!
Acknowledging your symtoms and asking for guidance is the right thing to do! Good on you!
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No toe stepping at all, no worries there! Idk, just offering my personal opinion on her crankiness and I am no doctor. I assume folks know we aren’t doctors and if they want some medical advice, they will go to their doctors. I was simply offering my experience of people running thru a gamut of emotions when they arrive here and that for some, it is PAWS. All good! 
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Like everyone has basically mentioned, it is totally normal 
u are not alone in this. To be honest my emotional state fluctuates alot. In early recovery i could be happy and positive and optimistic one second and then like a lightswitch change to extremely irritable, moody, and angry.
I have never known how to deal with my emotions in a healthy way. Honest to god, ive been using drugs since a young age and masking every natural feeling i had with drugs. Changing from drug to drug trying to create the perfect emotionally numb state. Now that im clean, im having to find healthy coping skills and healthy ways to regulate my emotions. It takes time but it does get easier if u find what works for u. I often use:
- pause when agitated
- grounding techniques
- mindfullness
- deep breathing
- exercise
- removing myself before i say or do something ill regret
It is very normal though and i think it takes time for our brains to adjust. Weve put our bodies and minds thru alot honestly. I have to be on mental health meds also for my mood stability. Im okay with that bcuz they do help. But definitly see what works for u
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A wide range of emotions comes tumbling out in the beginning. We repressed our emotions with our addiction…it is only normal that they come out.
Welcome to the family
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Meditation and self work will enable you to not just get sober, but to live sober also. The term ‘dry drunk’ comes out in situations like this, however being new to the sobriety scene, please remember that you need to work on all parts of you to stay sober
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Well, there’s a lot of variables that play into this… I won’t try to pretend I know what’s going on, but for me it was focus on mind, body and spirit. Finding a balance for all those things. Mediation and prayer as I understand it, helped me to connect to my inner being and higher power. First thing for me was stop hurting myself and others through my addiction ( alcohol). Then stopped trying to control it. For me it was all or nothing! If I know I’m not going to drink, there’s nothing to control or a decision to be made. So, the thought that comes to my mind, is the same as robbing a bank… and I’m not going to rob a bank, lol.
How do you know when your bitchy? The simple answer is not being bitchy… a simple pause. Is normally all it takes for me. In my meditation, I focus on thoughts, action and words to be a better person today. With the emphasis on Love and kindness. I know, as far fetched as this sounds… I try to replace all emotions with Love. I’m not 100% there. I try to approach every situation when I feel agitated with compassion and empathy. Throw in the Golden Rule: How would I want to be treated in this scenario? I do try to refrain from getting in to conversations that involve religion, politics and I don’t play monopoly with family members! I can get passionate!
Edit: Be truthful with yourself, just like you would be truthful with a loved one! “To your own self be truthful”
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I highly recommend reading the book This Naked Mind by Annie Grace. That book helped me decide to stop drinking for me. Not for others.
It helped me understand the brain chemistry too.
I hope you have a good day!
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Thanks everybody, I never went running just got home helped my son study and played teacher lol then just went to bed. Drinking isn’t crossing my mind at all I’m just a little depressed I guess: but it passes.
2 weeks today! And my family is very proud so I’m thankful for the support. My fiancé has also decided to quit with me. Maybe now we can find different ways on spending quality time. 
Love ya! Hope your day is -a great one! I will be taking in all your advice. I couldn’t do this without ya!! *Group Hug !!!
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That’s awesome Katy, happy to hear it! 
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One of the wisest things i heard in AA the first thing or things you put before your recovery is the first things you will lose…i speak from experience if you hang n there n do the work life will get greater later!
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