Since quitting meth and alcohol I have extremely moody. I miss having “fun” I feel like I’m boring cuz I no longer do the things that helped me be wild. I honestly don’t know how to take this. I’m moody and my weight keeps fluctuating both things I can’t handle. My body is still repairing itself but I can’t handle the ups and downs! My stress levels are through the roof and the only things that bring that down I don’t enjoy doing anymore. I work as much as possible and spend time with my kids when I’m home. I don’t really have time for a hobby but when I’m home on days off I do like to cook and then we’ll that’s where the weight control comes into effect…I’m healthier but not happier. Some of my surroundings is what makes me sad. I can’t leave the situation I just have to deal with it. The “situation” is my husband who uses and drinks still. I pray constantly and feel like it’s the only outlet I have right now. And this group for now. Meeting I don’t have time for. Am I the only one like this?! Sometimes I feel like I am.
It’ll get better, keep at it. You’re doing great! That shit will kill you; I have someone close to me battling it, saw him detox a couple times. He has been to the ER for accidental od too.
Please stay strong and look at the big picture; you’re kids will be better off and so will you, sweetie. Hubby; don’t let it tempt you. If anything feel bad he’s not ready for clean living just yet. 
I know that with drinking your emotions go kind of nutty when you quit. It’s your brain detoxing and learning to make the chemicals al by itself again. So no I’m SURE you’re not alone in that feeling.
I talked to my therapist about something similar recently. About how I binge drink because at the time I LOVE the feeling of being completely unbuckled. Like I LIKE to feel out of control. Anything could happen right? And 95% of the time it really wants anything life alteringly bad to be honest.
The thing is, the way I feel the next few days is TERRIBLE. sad anxious Lost of SI and terrible self talk and how many of my days do I want to spend in that state? None tbh.
When I got medicated for my depression I used to say “well I’m not crying all the time anymore but nothing is FUN either” he had me start focusing on being fully present instead of asking mysef if I was happy or having fun. Experience everything with all 5 senses. It really took the pressure off to be happy. Or to be having fun. And eventually I found my happy again. But in the meantime knowing I was at the very least fully present in my life was helpful.
Also I’m no expert. This is just the stuff that has been kinda helping me and I hope It can help you too
Yes I have. He just is stuck in the I’m an addict there’s nothing I can do. And tries to tell me all the benefits I don’t see in it. I honestly wanna challenge him but I don’t think it will work.
I don’t focus on his sobriety I only focus on mine. I know I’m not gonna get him to stop I know that. But…the fact that he brings me around it and I either gotta sit in the car for hours or go with him. We are always together and he goes through major mood swings so if I’m in a good mood it gets brought down by him and his negative bull shit and anger. Now it wouldn’t bother me so much if the anger and negativity wasn’t aimed at me but it is. So it’s like dealing with a monster that’s always pissed and ready to fight anyone. It’s hard. I focus on myself and pray for a change but it’s not gonna happen. When I was around the ppl smoking meth I had to look away and yes my cravings were BAD but I smoked my weed and remembered all the work I had done to get where I was and how much I hated being crazy. So I said no. A big fat pile of rocks in my face when I was drunk and still said no. But see that’s the thing one day I’ll be weak and if it’s still around me I could relapse. I just pray and read my Bible. And chat with you guys and thank you for the support!