I made it to day 10! Since I decided to throw away all the pot I had, I was highly motivated even through the withdrawals, which were less severe than my heroin withdrawals when I had zero motivation and I had to hit the rock buttom to quit.
Now, I’m in a bloody triangle, one point I’m very motivated, wanting to open another business, perfect my piano playing of the Game of Thrones soundtracks and continue learning Spanish in the same day 
second point, I have zero motivation and gloomy, everything is dull. Ok I’m not gonna dive in that one. The third angle of the triangle is those precious moments of serenity, boy when they come with a good song and feeling that with some patience this too shall pass, just breathe and look at the sky and feel that everything is gonna be alright, and currently those are very rare moments.
I keep jumping from a point to another, I don’t want to be impulsive trying to fix and do everything at once, I want to build new habits slowwwwly. In the same time I don’t want to go so easy on myself because I have seen what happened with that.
If you can understand this randomness of thoughts, I would love to hear what might have helped you achieve some balance in your life 
Much love to this society 
you ladies and gentlemen were a great part of me taking the decision and keep going. Cheers
stay strong and stay sober, you got this 🫶🏽