Hi! I’m moving on Friday ten minutes up the road from where I’ve been staying for 13 months with my baby boy. (He was 6 months old when we arrived here at my dad’s house in NY after leaving my son’s father behind in Chicago. that was rough and i drank a lot about it, til 87 days ago when I started my sobriety and recovery journey.) It has been so wonderful to finally be in a place where I can realize that I am safe, and in that safe place I’ve been able to do a lot of grieving and growing while joyfully raising my beautiful son.
Now that it’s time for us to head out, I am feeling very nervous! Very excited, but very nervous about how I will be able to develop my career as an artist while being a single mama on my own. The fact is, now I must step up to a whole different level. Get my business going, get money coming in, while taking care of my baby and the house and myself, by myself - it is a wild journey i’m embarking on!
Despite the nerves and the unknowns surrounding my tremendous responsibility, I just want to say that without sobriety I would not have been able to get to this place of actually having trust in myself that I can accomplish this. Just 3 months ago, if you said “okay you’re moving out in 3 days”, I would have been overcome with anxiety - in addiction I was completely insecure. Now, through sobriety and the work I’ve done in recovery, my newfound fortitude and faith and steadily-improving self-esteem allows me to actually feel ready for this incredible path ahead. I can do this. 
You deserve it 
