@MoCatt almost 9pm here. Tonight was hard. It’s that “after I put kids to sleep time”… Now I am getting ready to sleep…reading on here and This Naked Mind ebook. Normally I’d be up till 11ish but figure trying to sleep thru this will be best. My husband is supportive and we have zero alcohol in the house thankfully. The cravings are worst at night. I feel like I am gonna drown in seltzer water and juice but it’s helping. Thanks so much for asking.
I got a local number from AA today and actually made the call. Turns out there is only 1 person in my area in AA. I talked to him and we agreed to maybe meet Wed. I dont know. I said I would call him back but haven’t. (I live in SE Asia btw… originally from USA but have been working overseas for over a decade now) So… I dont know. AA with only 1 person seems weird but maybe it will help. I made it thru today. I keep telling myself I can do this. I am brave enough to live without booze. And for my kids.
@crystalclear thanks… I had never heard of PAWS. So far my biggest issues are the cravings, not great sleep, shaky a little, antsy…like I can not sit still. I cant do the cut back thing…same for me…everytime it gets worse. I need to be 100% sober. That’s the part I wish people would get. That I cant just “cut back”. We all know that. That’s why I am really loving this community. I think this is the first time I have ever admitted I am an alcoholic. It feels so heavy to say. At the same time, freeing. Congrats on 17 days. We can do this. Also chat or send a message if you ever want to talk. 
You got this lady! It gets easier as your body gets used to being without the booze. I wish you well and I’m sending you loads of positive vibes… self care is super important, look after you. Bubble baths and naps help me loads x good luck, keep checking in here, it’s a great place 
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hey Kelly, I’m currently in rehab at 44 days today, and it’s tough and hard to do, but it’s every much worth it. trust me it gets hella worse if you keep pushing it, best wishes and prayers to you, and no matter what anyone says , do this for you that is the most important thing. you really gotta wanna stop, maybe attend AA.
Thank you for this list! I’m going to try everything on this list today. Today is day one !
Good for you, Kelly, for the efforts you are putting into staying sober! There is a website I’ve used a couple times for online meetings at any time. It might help you. In the rooms
Blessings on your house 
as you begin your journey.
My first day too! Actually 3 hours sober. 
my story is similar but my kids are in their 20’s. Hoping I have the strength to do this. In February I started a doctor assisted protein shake diet, stopped drinking and lost 40lbs. I wanted to loose 50lbs but I got cocky thinking I could do it in my own. In June I basically went back to my old eating habits and returned to drinking. I have gained 9lbs back and my binge drinking is worse than it’s ever been. I am terrified and ashamed of myself. I haven’t decided if I am making an official announcement of my sobriety to my kids yet. My husband knows I want to quit. I don’t think he realizes how bad this is. Long story short, I wish you all the best!
I completely understand nights being hard.m
My worst times were after my children were asleep. I needed an escape from the noise in my house and my head - and the only place I knew to find it was in a bottle.
These things helped me early on -
I wrote a letter to myself, describing how I felt about the shambles of my life. I talked about how much I hated myself and how I wanted to live differently, not only for myself but for my children. I keep that letter in my purse, and I read it when I felt like I had to have a drink.
I made plans for evenings. I did (and do) go to AA. When I got home I took long baths with candles, music, scented bath salts…anything to ground myself and get through until bedtime.
I read a lot about alcoholism and addiction.
I went for a lot of walks.
I read here - for hours and hours. On a couple of occasions I reached out here for help - and you know what? I got it. Folks here got me through the bad moments - and do to this day.
I turned down a lot of social engagements and had an escape plan for the few I had to attend. Drove desperately, left early.
I made sure I talked with another alcoholic every day. Knowing that someone understands helps so much.
It gets easier with time. You are doing great. I was about to mention on-line meetings, but @SinceIAwoke beat me to it. Also, I’m going to tag my friend @Englishd. He seems to find AA meetings in all corners of the world.
Omg I drank so much seltzer water in the beginning. 
that definitely helped
Awesome. I’m sure I did more but I was a little crazy that first month. I know that my house, yard and car have never been cleaner. I organized everything lol you can do this. The first week is tough. Come here a lot. I dont know if i would have made it without AA, this app and medication from my dr that first month or 2.
My husband still asks me everyday if I’ve checked in with my sober people. Indeed I do. I check here everyday even today on day 900.
We can do this. You can do this. I can do this. This community here has been amazing. I have never tried with using the community even though.I have used the app for a year. I haven’t told anyone yet either other than my husband.
Day 3.
Wow last night was crazy. Cravings. Slept woke up slept woke up cycle. Got up around 1am craving. Ate dark chocolate and sharp cheddar cheese …guzzled more water. Night sweats!! Yuk. Everything drenched. I need a coffee and a shower. BUT. It is Day 3…I’m dry. Still nice not to have a headache even though I would love to go back to bed. 
I was exhausted for quite awhile in early recovery…sleep or rest when you can and congrats on day 3!!! Your body is healing!!
The wake and sleep and wake and sleep cycle is so familiar to me! For the first 2 weeks I was super fatigued. I’m still not feeling very energetic these days but it’s better than feeling hungover & having a headache. You’ll most likely experience some other physical symptoms too but they WILL pass. Hang in there! I’m probably going to bed early after an emotionally exhausting couple of days. It’s just easier. Congrats on day 3! Keep going.
Kelly! Good to meet you. I’m on day 36 and this community definitely helps. I hope you find the same!
Day number 5 here! We got this! Reading and checking in here every day has really helped me!
Day 4.
(Edit I am going to check in here on this thread daily for my own accountability… ) Still new to this forum and find it a little confusing with so many threads.
Good morning. I thought last night was going to be rough as husband was out playing soccer with his friends and as usual was drinking with them. (He does 1x a week) In the past this was my excuse to drink more after putting kids to bed.
BUT… even though I was craving bad I checked in here a lot last night and made it. Yes!!! AND I finally got an OK nights sleep
@Here.I.am, glad you’re here! And checking in on here every single day has been incredibly helpful for me. You’ve found a great forum here. 
@anon86726034 thanks. Yeah, I’ve tried getting sober before…so I think it’s like he’ll believe it when he sees it. He actually is really supportive. No booze in the house atm. But for sure doesn’t see HOW important this is to me and this time around I am really trying.
@Blondie1x thanks! Yeah… I am in need of all the ideas I can get …nights are hard. Now its 3pm in afternoon and I am wanting a nap but not possible.