This is something I have been thinking about doing for a long time. When I think about the social situations I have been in, which all include alcohol, almost all of them have a negative point during the event which I put down to alcohol. When I drink I can be totally fine and then even a tiny thing happens that annoys me and it’s like I flip a switch, I become a whole other person who is really horrible and pushes the people I love away. When this happens it’s like I can see what I’m doing from a distance but I don’t have any power to stop myself. I have ruined a few events and friendships with this.
I want to take a stand against the part of me that I hate, the alcohol induced part.
What I think I will struggle with the most is not having a vice, or coping mechanism. If I have a bad day at work I like to go home and have a drink. I don’t smoke and don’t want to start. I dabbled with some drugs when I was a fresh 18 year old but thankfully none of those habits stuck. I’m worried about what I will turn to as a substitute…