I’m addicted to marijuana. I have been a smoker for over 20 years, and a heavy smoker for the past 10. I smoke from the moment I open my eyes in the morning, until I close them at night. I could easily smoke an eighth to a quarter a day, by myself. I love to smoke, I’m an addict.
I guess I should back track a bit though, those first 10 years of smoking were mixed with lots of booze. I can honestly say that I was an alcoholic for those years, and up until recently, I would have denied being an alcoholic. Because of my bff @MandiH, I can admit this. She gave me the courage, once she sobered up! This past year, has been a real eye opener for me, all the ups and downs.
I have since replaced the alcohol, almost entirely, with pot. I rarely drink these days.
I have been diagnosed with ADHD, I have been on many meds, and they all make me foggy, uncoordinated, and lethargic. I was introduced to pot in high school at 16, and all my anxiety, and excess energy was gone. My brain slowed down so I could have one though at a time. It was nice, my grades were improving so much, I made Dean’s list. It was a miracle drug, much better than the little pills that made me drowsy. Plus it’s a natural plant, right? I’m not gonna get addicted!
I am 2 days sober. I do NOT want to go back to the pills and being a zombie, but I need to get my life back!
I have put down pot once before, for a year and I turned to alcohol. … again. I am afraid that I will have the same habits this time as well.
Also, I cant sleep!! Aside from melatonin and meditation… any advice?