Today has been a great day. Wasn’t as hard as it was this morning. I spent time reading my bible, having some face to face questions to answer and praying. As tired as I was I did it.
My bible was dented from my bible case [has a zipper pocket] metal dug into my leather cover. Looking up apparently water and hot hair dryer gets the dents out. Wow! It worked! Made me smile today!
I am super content at the moment. I am so grateful. I know each day will bring it’s own challenges.
I am limiting my time on social media - itself is helping because that alone is full of discontented atmosphere and buy me buy me ads!
Tomorrow’s new series “Alone” on Stack TV is coming out! I am looking forward to that.
My tablet was broken so I got my new tablet today so I am back to colouring which is super exciting.
Overall today has been a wonderful day.
I made it thru yesterday & today without dropping a dime. That makes me the most happy.
Can’t sleep tonight. My mind is racing. I wanna sleep but so much is on my mind. I could get up and colour but I want my brain to settle. I feel really nauseous tonight too. That isn’t exactly helping. I guess I will keep scrolling until I can’t keep my eyes open.
I hope your mind has settled by now. In case it did not, sometimes what helps for me is listening to a guided meditation on the InsightTimerApp. Sometimes it does not help and I distract myself otherwise. I hope you’ll find sleep soon
Thank you. I actually did Bible study this morning. It’s about 5am here. I am onto Psalm 9. It was really good. I am glad I started on Psalm. The Bible I have has a section that asks questions about you personally and God. It helps me to reflect, understand and apply. This has been something I haven’t been able to do since I got out of the hospital from sepsis back in Jan. It really affected my cognitive, retention and various others learning and language.
So - huge win for me. I don’t know if I can be consistent but I am going to make it a goal every morning. Even if I can’t do all the questions, I am putting the time, effort and energy into it. It means so much to me.
Coming back from such a grave illness is always humbling. There are so many things about our abilities we take for granted. We realise that often only after such a major event. I had an infection of my heart muscle a few years ago and boy was I in for a ride.
So really: You do what you are capable of in this moment. If you can make a plan, or a schedule - great. If you can do a thing from your plan - also great. If breathing is all you can do on a day - also great. We all are trying to be alive
I mean I am not new because I have had major heart surgeries, one lung, lupus and other. But nothing like this where I have been stripped of all my independence. Wow. Very humbling. Thank you for sharing your story and validating me.