This year has been rough. About a month ago, we got into our worst fight possibly ever. I engaged in some negativity for a while, got really sick off a specific bender, missed a week of work but then did 15 days sober. It was roughly when I started looking into my life to having sobriety seriously for the first time in ages.
Tonight, one of my family members and I finally spoke for the first time since. It was an emotionally charged conversation that turned out to have years of baggage behind it. Some of it had some of my worst drinking years weaved into it, but our root cause was somewhat vague and I left feeling more confused than relieved. We also shared a really positive moment together when I told them I had done 15 days sober, they were ecstatic. I guess families and relationships are pretty complicated.
Anyhow, I am posting this because this ongoing situation has been weakening me slowly over the last week or so and then unfortunately completely derailed my sobriety. I am feeling a bit lost. Any advice to get back on the wagon would be super appreciated.