My first stumble after so long

It’s almost 43 days since I relapsed, and, I relapsed again. I just feel that now, I have a lot of things that made my life busier, I’m stressed out by it. But I believe, this stumble will make myself a lot better if I keep fighting this war, fix myself, and finally win it, wish me luck guys!

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Sorry to hear about your relapse. Glad you did 43 days clean first though! What was working for you then? And what will you do to handle the extra stress so that it doesn’t push you closer to relapse again?

Thank you very much for the support! I think I was going too easy on myself. I’m going to make a more planned routine, not just about my daily activities but I intend to make a schedule for my workout too, hell I wanted to buff myself up for a long time but it still just a wish until now, lol :sweat_smile:. And I also plan to wake up earlier so I can prepare more for the day, I can be more prepared than everybody else, and I can be more focused on school. And there are a lot of positive activities that I really want to make a habit outta myself.
And if that stress ever come out to myself, I think it’s a great opportunity to practice patience. It’s a great way to become more calm, so I can have a better attitude on handling more problems in the future.

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Sorry you relapsed again ,maybe ameeting might help they helped me wish you well

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Keep your expectations realistic! You don’t have to change everything at once. Just change the small things and make them a routine. The big things will fall into place. Find what works for you and build from there🙂

Awesome job on 43 days!

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Way to look at it as a stumble and get right back to the fight!

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Hey!
I don’t know if you believe in god or not but you should not worry about working out and creating a schedule that will stress you out, I think you need to work on your spirituality. Connect with your higher power, ask for help. Nobody can do this on their own, it is not a war that is ever won, so don’t look at it like that, you simply learn how to live with this disease we have.

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I do believe in God, Josh, thanks for reminding me (:

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Don’t get down on yourself. I relapsed 4 days ago after 211 days of sobriety. I swore I was solid and sober for good. That’s unfortunately what my addict brain wanted me to think. I got prideful and ignored all the learning, resources and protocols I’d accumulated during my sobriety. Boom, fell flat on my face. It can happen to anyone, no matter how much sobriety you have.

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I couldn’t agree more with what you said.

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I highly recommend adding structure to your life. Regular workouts. Waking at the same time each day. Developing a morning routine beginning with making your bed.

In keeping to a schedule or routine, you exercise self-discipline. Anything you exercise gets stronger. Self-discipline is your best tool to staying clean and sober. It really comes down to being strong enough to say “no” to the toughest person to say “no” to: ourselves.

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I agree: after just days of structure being heavily emphasized at the rehab I was at, I already was noticing positive effects in my self discipline.

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