So, it happened. A little more than two weeks in give or take (I stopped looking to be honest) I drank. And I have until earlier tonight. Had a few beers with my dad (3) and just lost the taste. First thought was to come on here.
I can’t think of any reason that I can give that I wish was good. No death in my family; my wife or kids didn’t leave; didn’t lose a job. I just gave in. I fucked up. Plain and simple.
I don’t make a habit out of reading my posts before, but if I didn’t say it already, I’m a binge drinker. Never have drank every day, but when I do, it’s off to the races.
I don’t want sympathy and I don’t have a woes me story. Save money lost, nothing bad happened other than losing my momentum towards sobriety. That’s god-damned lucky compared to some.
Maybe I was wrong. A support group, other than here is in order. I’ll deal with that tomorrow, as it’s 11:23pm EST. I just wanted to be honest on here to someone tonight.
To my, now former, sober twin @anon44659383, I’m sorry I can’t be that with you anymore. Thank you for helping me in my very early first sobriety and I look forward to moving on with you, just without the same date.
To the board as a whole, thank you for being here. I’ll continue to learn and move forward. And as I do, especially in the AA world I threw away so quickly earlier, I’ll certainly appreciate your help and support.