Hello,
Like so many out there I want to see my life and what it is like without my addiction holding me back. I have struggled with pornography and masterbation since about the age of 8 when someone showed me a stupid dirty magazine. At about the age of 20 I first opened up to someone about my problem and since that time I have had highs and lows of getting a handle on my addiction. In September of 2019 (age 27) I had an extremely low point and was determined to put this all behind me… As it goes with many of us, I was sober for about 6 months and then I had 1 little slip. I beat myself up, restarted, lasted a few months and slipped again. On this past July 28th 2021 was my last slip. I have been sober for 67 days now. I hate that I have wasted 20 years of my life addicted to this degrading habit. I feel like my guilt is actually in away fueling my determination to stay sober. No matter how many times I have fallen in the past, I am determined to not give up in my struggle and I will keep fighting for a better tomorrow.
Today at work I started reorganizing my office. Doing this makes me feel calmer. It feels great tossing out the old and cleaning up my space. In doing this I want it to reflect my resolve to clean up my life and habits. I think I am going to get a mirror to put in my office.
Hi
Im not into porn, my DOC is alcohol. Watching porn, i do seldom, because i really don’t like the feeling afterwards…You know, exact this moment when you’re done, but the clip is still on the screen…Not a sexy feeling, right?
I wish you all the best in your recovery. Stay strong👍
If I want stay on my path of staying sober I need to make realistic and practical changes in my life. Easier said than done. One thing I did is I have downgraded my phone from a smart phone to a basic flip phone and have installed a content filter on my tablet… These small steps are gonna help in the long run if I stick to them.
Thank you.
For any out there who struggle with porn and masterbation you should check out “The Porn Reboot Podcast” it has been a great resource for me. My 1 year goal is July 29th 2022. Any support is greatly appreciated.
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It’s been 84 days since my last slip. I am one who has held onto guilt and it has been plaguing my mind the past two weeks. Recently I read something though that gave me encouragement. “A relapse does not mean defeat” The sad truth is, relapse is a part of the road to recovery. It may be painful, but we should not dwell on it. We should instead get back up, asses why the slip happened, and keep walking up the stairs. There is no sense in going all the way back to the bottom of the flight of stairs. Don’t give up.
Day 97. I am still clean. Though I have felt some desire to relapse I am acknowledging these feelings and going through why I may be feeling this way. I’ve been a little stressed in my life… and in the past pornography and masterbation was my way of escaping the problems stressing me out. Giving me that rush of dopamine to dull my feelings even for a brief moment… The reality is now, I can’t run away from my problems and take that “quick fix” rush of dopamine. I’ve got to acknowledge whatever it is going on in my life and be a man, take action to address the problem in a thoughtful reasonable way.
i am with you and wish you the best! strong together.
Day 110 as a clean man. The stains of my addiction still linger, but with each passing day I know they are slowly getting bleached away.
I am on the edge of giving in. I came on here to try and vent and talk things through. I want to give in, but I DONT want to give in. I am stressed right now, I feel angry, I don’t want to feel this way.
I started going through other people’s posts to help me refocus. It has helped. Thank you. I feel more in control now.
Hi,
You’re doing great. I’m sorry I didn’t notice you before.
Porn has also been my DOC.
This morning I made a good ol’ fashion to do list and have been getting things done. These little wins as I check them off feel good. I also sat down and prayed asking for help overcoming my impulses. I feel better and I know that each time I don’t give in, that is a win. I succeed when I get through the day. Even if the desire was there to watch pornography I feel happy because I am building upon my self control. My God is giving me the power beyond what is normal to succeed. 
Good Morning,
Porn has been my DOC for 30+ years, now approaching 8 months sober. It took legal problems, a rehab center and continued group therapy to put me in recovery. Mindfulness has played the biggest part in my recovery, I choose how to respond instead of reacting. Hope you are doing well! I’ll often search for recovery posts on porn addiction, not as much here as alcohol.
What do you do to stay sober? Some of mine are;
Journaling
Daily gratitude journal
Meditation
Gym and yoga
PCI Personal Craziness Index (look this one up, it’s a great tool to help prevent slips)
Best,
Don