My name is Catlin I’m going on 12days sober from meth and heroin I was on that stuff for 16years and this is the first time I’ve finally put it down and not want to go back to it anymore it’s crazy because all of my 16 years not once have I ever been hit with narcan nor overdosed I just built up a very high tolerance for it and then it became the first thing I had to grab right when I woke up just so I wouldn’t feel sick I was so terrified of feeling any type of withdrawal feelings that I didn’t care what I sold or who’s feelings I hurt the only thing that mattered to me at the time was how I was going to get my next high heroin and fitanal has taken so much from me I having to actually start all over and I’m kinda glad starting over because I’m only 12days clean and sober but I’ve never been more clear headed in my life I’ve been setting small little goals and crossing them of the list it just makes me feel better about myself I just wanted to share a little bit about my story I appreciate this app and everyone on here I hope and pray everyone has a blessed clean day thank y’all very much God bless!!!
Welcome, Catlin! Thanks for putting it out there on what’s driving you to live life differently. A beautiful clean/sober day to you too & strong work with the 12! Let’s keep going!
I just wanted more for myself and having to worry about how I was going to get my next high from was so exhausting because that’s the only thing that would be on my mind 24/7 and I thought I was in control of it all but I definitely was not I wasted 16years of my life chasing that high and I feel like I don’t have anything to show for it’s taking everything from me and had me to the point where I put 1 bullet in a 38special and closed my eyes and spun it then put it to my head and I pulled the trigger and I just heard a click I exhaled sat the gun on the pool table in my basement and walked upstairs and started looking for detox centers near me and I got blessed with going to SCAT in Greenville SC that place is truly a blessing they helped me by showing me the tools I needed to keep staying sober now I made a list of people I’ve hurt or done wrong while I was high and not caring at all I made it a goal to go back and try to fix those I’ve hurt and I’m feeling more proud of myself everyday and I don’t ever see myself going back to the drugs ever again I’m just going to take it one day at a time keep God in my heart and by my side always and I’ve been at the bottom for a long time so there’s only one way for me and that’s up and that’s wat I’m going to continue on doing is going up in life
So glad you are doing better and that you found us here Catlin.
Welcome Catlin! Sooo glad u found us! Thank u for sharing a bit of ur story 
Even tho I havent used heroin, I have used other opiods and i can relate to that fear of withdrawl. I tell u tho, once u get past the withdrawal, its sooooo freeing to not be a daily slave to it any longer. I am also a recovering meth addict 
I am soo proud of u for getting to 12 days clean and sober! What a HUGE act of self love. The best gift u can ever give urself 
Hope to see u posting more. Stay active on the forum and seek out further support, such as a 12 step meeting. There should be some in ur area or there are some meetings online. I use the Intherooms app for those. Never forget ur reasons for quitting (write them down if needed). Ur worth a healthy, clean and sober life!
Lovely to meet you and im glad you found this community. A huge congrats on 12days free!!! What supports have you in place to keep you sober?
I can relate to that feeling youre describing about just being done. I felt that same moment of surrender. We dont have to continue the addiction cycle we can recover!
I look forward to learning more about you. Lean in here its a lifesaver
Thank you so much it’s good to let it out instead of just keeping everything bottled up inside heroin and meth had a strong hold on me for 16years and to be clean feels absolutely amazing I’m more clear minded than I’ve ever been I truly feel amazing and blessed to be here